A mother accused of being responsible for the death of her three-week old baby has denied being "a coke-head".
Three-week-old Stanley Davis died in March 2017 from a broken skull after previously sustaining 41 fractures.
His mother, Roxanne Davis, 30, missed seeing a midwife because of cocaine use, Winchester Crown Court heard.
She and her former partner, Sam Davies, 24, both originally from Gosport in Hampshire, deny causing or allowing the death of a child.
Stanley suffered broken ribs and limbs on three separate occasions before the fatal head injury was inflicted on or about 20 March, the court has heard previously.
'A few lines'
He died in hospital on 28 March, a week after being taken from the couple's home in Garland Court.
Ms Davis of Lee Road, Gosport, told jurors she was "disappointed" at missing the midwife appointment when Stanley was a week old because of her cocaine use.
"I wouldn't have had any more than a few [lines of cocaine] - I had my baby," she said.
Mr Davies' barrister, Sally Howes QC, said: "You put your own enjoyment of taking drugs before your responsibility to Stanley."
"Not true," Ms Davis replied. "I wasn't a coke-head like you're trying to put to me. Disgusting."
Ms Howes said the defendant had missed further midwife appointments on 20 and 21 March, despite feeling "scared" about her baby's "glazed" stare.
'Nasty, vicious temper'
Ms Davis said on the first occasion her former partner "wouldn't give me my stuff" and on the second her sister had made her late.
The barrister suggested the defendant had wanted to continue her late nights out and drug-taking, and resented Mr Davies for bringing her lack of maternal care "into sharp focus".
"Having found you couldn't cope, your nasty, vicious temper got the better of you," the barrister said.
"I didn't hurt him, I didn't abuse him, I didn't smack him or anything. I loved my little boy," the defendant insisted, in a raised voice.
"I'm sat by my son's grave every day. Every morning before I come here," she sobbed.
Mr Davies, of Mayfield Road, Southampton, was her partner at the time but not the baby's father, prosecutors previously said.
The trial continues.