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Rebecca Denton, Online Exec | 12:00 UK time, Friday, 10 February 2012

Letter to Eve 1
Letter to Eve 2
Letter to Eve 3
Letter to Eve 4
Letter to Eve 5



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  • Comment number 1.

    Thank you.

  • Comment number 2.

    Aww - away for a read now! Thanks Rebecca!

  • Comment number 3.

    Oh my gosh, that's sooooo sad. Thank you to whoever put the words into George's writing. *sniff sniff*
    (ps page 2 isn't clickable to enlarge but I could still read it - might be very hard for some.)

  • Comment number 4.

    Thanks @gingernut, will tweak now. x

  • Comment number 5.

    Oh God i'm filling up again. So sad, so poignant and at the time just pure...George. The comment about Eve not inheriting his ears made me chuckle. The line about love and pride was especially heart rending, coupled with neither he or Nina being around to watch her grow. How we wish that Eve would be reading this letter with her 'silly dad' nearby. Maybe he will be, she just won't see him (or will she?....)

    Oh heck i'm all sad that he won't be back all over again.

  • Comment number 6.

    So sad indeed. I loved the line about his ears too! But this means that they had already decided on the name Eve for her? I thought he'd just decided as he was in Annie's arms.

  • Comment number 7.

    Thanks Rebecca!

    Oh! more sadness!

  • Comment number 8.

    Aw thats beautiful and I'm sobbing my heart out here, as a parent that just really got to me sniff sob Thank you BH

  • Comment number 9.

    Well I like to think of myself as a mans man but I found myself choked right up then , maybe its because I have two young boys of my own but that was just everything a parent worries about & fears (maybe not about vampires but you know what I mean) & it really felt like it was written by the George we knew.
    Excellent work there BH people......Thanks Rebecca...!!

  • Comment number 10.

    *crying my eyes out* That's the most beautiful, sweetest and saddest letter I have ever read.

    "Those words seem hollow on the page"? Oh George, you are still making me cry now!

    The online content on this Blog for Series 4 has just been outstanding. I see the shape of things to come now - I understand why peeps say "X was missing" - but Lord Toby knew that all along and here it is - on the blog - this lovely blog.

    Thank you to everyone who has clearly planned this meticulously.

    I am in bits now. *sobs* Love Manc x

  • Comment number 11.

    *sobs quietly*

  • Comment number 12.

    The letter is addressed to his dad and it's been opened. Did his dad read it? Did he think that his son was mad or had he accepted the fact that George was, indeed, a ww? When did George write it. Just before going to kill Griffin or at some other point in the maximum of 2 weeks since Nina's death? Will Eve now be taken to George's parents to bring up? How will they protect her if that happens? Or has Annie or Tom opened it? So many questions. Poor George :-(

  • Comment number 13.

    What a lovely letter. Not just for Eve but for the BH we knew.

    Thank you Rebecca and the Blog.

  • Comment number 14.

    There's no stamp on the envelope, Sasha, no folds in the paper, so maybe we're seeing it prior to posting. Left in the house to be found - like McNair's note to Tom. Annie will keep it safe. Annie can't get the grandparent's involved. They couldn't keep her safe.

  • Comment number 15.

    *blows nose* We're running out of tissues on this blog....

    I wonder if the people that were screaming blue murder will turn up now and say, "thank you - I was wrong - I should have waited - here is the poignant moment shared between us all". As I am forever an optimist, I'm sure they will.
    Well, take no notice of me - just too upset after reading the letter. *sobs*

    Sasha - oh dear, addressed to his Dad? Oh, that makes it worse! *proper bawling now*

  • Comment number 16.

    Yeah I'd noticed no stamp but not the fact that paper hadn't been folded. Well done. Phew! Surely G's parents know about Eve? And I agree - they could.not.keep.her.safe!

  • Comment number 17.

    14 - Spot on there Sea_Otter...

  • Comment number 18.

    If only we could hear Russell reading this aloud...
    Not a dry eye in the house.

  • Comment number 19.

    Oh, unless there is another letter for his dad which is already in the envelope and he just hadn't posted it yet? Although the envelope doesn't *look* as though there is anything in it.

    As Manc has said - many thanks to LT and Rebecca and the rest of the team for the online content. It is very very much appreciated! Sasha x

  • Comment number 20.

    18 - I could *hear* every word. Didn't George describe Nina to a T?!

  • Comment number 21.

    20 - Sasha Bwaaaawwwaa *gulp* yes he did!. I wish we could all be together in that café in Cardiff with Caradoc right now having a cup of tea and a 'group hug'. x

  • Comment number 22.

    The letter everybody would have loved to read...after...after... when words become elusive echoes of shadows

    A private letter to a dear daughter in a never sent envelop. Who kept it to be read later, much later on by Eve? Annie? Could it be her grandfather never received it?
    Yes, I am threading on a very sensitive issue. a private letter and I feel like a voyeur. I feel for George who wanted to give his daughter a reason to hope, i feel for Eve who has read it; yet the aspect of the paper does not suggest that it has been laying around a long time.
    In fact, I wonder if : as Annie and Tom came back to HH, Tom carrying the baby to prevent neighbourrly baby-worried concerns, and they laid her back in her cot, they did not see the envelop on the table waiting near the empty tea mugs.

  • Comment number 23.

    OMG, I can't stop crying....

    15- Manc, yes I am saying "Thank you" to LT and Rebecca for posting this and giving us the "rememberance" we wanted.

  • Comment number 24.

    I...I think I've got something in my eye... *sniff*

    I have to say I love the online content on the blog, really fleshes out the story...even though I feel like you people at BH are subjecting me to emotional torture on a regular basis with these George and Nina posts.

    Have spent the whole week quietly scolding myself for being in mourning for two fictional werewolves...but it's happening regardless. Curse you BH and your lovable characters.

  • Comment number 25.

    envelop flat nothing in it
    5 pages folded in the middle - one can see the crease on page 5
    one can also see that someone has written on top of the pad

    sadly BH Blog research team is not equiped like CSI , beside I do not think today is the day to play 'hard forensic'

  • Comment number 26.

    Oh my good lord...are you people trying to kill me with all of these extras? I've barely gotten over the first episode back and you keep setting me off with all of these delightfully wonderful yet painful behind the scenes snippets.

    Thank you...but *shakes fist* at the same time!

  • Comment number 27.

    The pages of the letter have been folded, but not folded in a way that they would fit in that envelope. But maybe George used some old crinkled paper, maybe that's all he had when he decided to write the letter.

    Wonder when he decided on the baby's name. Did George and Nina do it together or did George just decide on it when he was writing the letter.

    Would have like George to have written more about the good times he had with Mitchell and not dwell on the darkness. After all Mitchell did save George's life, and more than once. If there had been no Mitchell, there wouldn't have been an Eve.

  • Comment number 28.

    23 - swrnma - Oh you've just set me off crying again and I had just stopped! That's a lovely thing to say!

    I guess this is what it must be like to be in therapy - we are all saying 'goodbye' and fond farewell to Nina and George before Sunday, aren't we? This is the funeral. This letter could have been read out at a funeral. The script could have been the final scene that George remembered about Nina and read out at a funeral. Oh this is so sad... If there is another blog post to come of a funeral I will NOT make it to Sunday!

  • Comment number 29.

    Aaaaawww! Such a tender letter and I love the scene with George and Nina and Eve. Like G and N have come back to say good bye. *blows nose*

  • Comment number 30.

  • Comment number 31.

    28- Manc, can you pass me some tissues..I'm all out! I've been home sick with a cold and between that and all the crying, I have had to start using toliet paper.

  • Comment number 32.

    24 - VitaminHeart - Oh yes! Just realised that I am sobbing my heart out over two fictional characters as well! What are we like! *sniffs* But I will truly miss George and Nina. Lord Toby - how do you do that thing you do? Astounding!

    I could see George sitting down at a desk and writting the letter.... and looking at Eve in the cot....

    This is our time to grieve.

  • Comment number 33.

    No questions asked that right there is the remembrance of Nina and Mitchell and George, in his own words, that was needed. Every parents worst nightmare realised. The final goodbye and hurrah. Thankyou LT and Rebecca for posting this gem.

  • Comment number 34.

    Can I borrow some ones tissues I used all mine up during my last rewatch.

    It's got to be said Georges hand writing is terrible.

    "These lot are useless"

  • Comment number 35.

    Had to post this again for those of you who didn't see it...and also because this is the blog it needs to be on.


  • Comment number 36.

    Mancvamp I can see George having finished writing that as the last episode began. Perhaps Annie went up to see him as she heard him move around upstairs through the chimney baby listening device. These fictional characters catch us sweep us along with them and endear us to them through some absolutely brilliant writing. Thats the thing only such a well written program allows you to imagine a life outside of it for the characters.

  • Comment number 37.

    Oh, for goodness sake. Now I have to come up with a reason for my eyes being bloodshot. I can't even claim it's hay fever at this time of year.

    Thanks LT, Rebecca and everyone involved in sharing these little gems on the blog with us all. The letter and the script may have broken my heart...again, but it's worth every tear when I remember just how much I love these characters and how much I'll miss them. *sniff*

  • Comment number 38.

    There is a flowering shrub on the blog patio, Inch, it always sets me off, blame that...and I've done a quick run to the shops...supersoft tissues...they are dropping the rest off in a bulk delivery, thought I'd better get a few extra tons

  • Comment number 39.

    #35 Thanks, swrnma, for posting that beautiful YT video again - I watched it yesterday and it's truly a lovely tribute to them all.

  • Comment number 40.

    You're welcome Gingernut...sorry to make everyone cry again, but, as I said before, there have been 1000's of video posted about our Being Human family, but this one just seemed the most fitting and beautifully edited.

  • Comment number 41.

    Oh Inch - Sorry - but I can't stop crying now... I know you don't like this sort of thing - will try to 'buck up' soon - promise (big lie - can't help it).

    36- susan - whoever FairyCutie86 is on Youtube - she is awesome for making that tribute vid "Life Let Go" I can't sign up for Youtube for.... legal reasons...but if anyone can - please tell them that I thought that was truly beautiful. Deserves a medal - or masses of party-rings - hey and thanks for bringing it to the Blog. x

  • Comment number 42.

    38 Oh of course! It is that pesky shrub. It strangely only seems to affect me when I either read or see something sad on BH...

    Good plan Scotch. Hopefully they're the ones with added balsam or aloe vera...I think we'll be needing a lot over the course of this series.

    Lovely video swrnma. I think that unseasonal hay fever's getting to me again...

  • Comment number 43.

    I'm not usually the mushy type but I just found out my wife is pregnant and I've been this huge ball of emotions. Truly heartfelt letter and great post to bring it to light to everyone!

    Thank you Rebecca and the Blog.

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  • Comment number 44.

    36 - howlingblue - *sob* I know. What a nice thing to say.

    Where are those tiiiiissssssuuuuueeeeeessssss?

  • Comment number 45.

    That was beatiful, as he said "this letter can never be long enough......"
    very true and its made me want to write similar letter to my cubs, trouble is I've got three of them! Thanks for the inspiration George.

  • Comment number 46.

    41 Oh I don't mind it. I'm a big softie/wimp really. Here's a a box of man-size tissues.

    I wondered if George had written the letter when he decided to "storm the Bat Cave" with Tom. Perhaps while Annie and Tom were arguing in the kitchen.

    I also think he had privately decided on a name for Eve by that point, but as he thought their future was so devoid of hope, he just couldn't bring himself to say it aloud.

  • Comment number 47.

    Aloe vera tissues...there's a medicinal bottle of whisky in the cupboard, by the kitchen sink, and a cuddly werebaby soft toy if anyone wants a hug...

  • Comment number 48.

    35 - Thanks - that is really superb and just hits the spot. Pass the hankies Inch, would you?

  • Comment number 49.

    41 - Manc, I posted your comment on youtube to FairyCutie86. Did not mention your name just in case!

    On a more upbeat note...I'm sure everyone heard Russell say in his last interview that anything is possible on Being Human..leaving me the impression that he, Nina or Mitchell may be back in some form or another in the future. Did I hear that correctly?

  • Comment number 50.

    Who's crying on the floor? Me? Not at all. [read: *sobs violently*]

  • Comment number 51.

    Nice letter, even if slightly out of contest for me...more like an added afterthought once all the steam has blown off.

    In any case, I think its quite presumptuous to ask ppl who have expressed their contrasting opinion after Ep 1 to "apologise" since this letter proves that we've been wrong all along.

    Everyone is entitled to their opinion, of course when being expressed politely.

    I personally don't feel this letters offers the resolution I was waiting for, or in fact changes what I think about the quick brushing aside of characters or storylines - one season too late.

    But that does not mean that I won't keep on watching or that I think that everything was bad. I just hope that the blog will always be open to whoever has a different (or non conformist) reaction to what happens in the series, just because we have to "be nice".

  • Comment number 52.

    48 - Thanks Sasha...but all I have is toilet paper..all out of tissues

  • Comment number 53.

    Also, if I may, it sounds a bit too much like McNair letter to Tom, to really strike any chords...kind of seen it all before...

  • Comment number 54.

    Plain and simple love this !!

  • Comment number 55.

    47 I found a Big Bad Pig cuddly toy next to the 3 werecub toys, so I just threw it out. We wouldn't want it to start blowing anybody's house down.

    48 There you go, Sasha and swrnma. Balsam super soft tissues in man-size packs. Only 3 ply will do for the bloggers' delicate noses!

    50 *whispers sympathetically* Here's a tissue Jay. We feel your pain.

    51 Hi Saraneth! Hopefully Series 4 will evolve into the BH that you can love again.

    54 Welcome to the blog Roxyvamp. It always takes a while for your comments to appear when you first post on the blog.

  • Comment number 56.

    51 - Hi Saranethbell. I can see where you are coming from but I don't think it seems an afterthought at all. I think it has been quite clearly planned and timed to perfection.

    Can I ask how, if you were LT, you would have dealt with this set of circumstances:

    Aidan tells you - I don't know lets say two-thirds of the way through filming S3 that he doesn't think he'll be back because of Hobbit filming. Then decides no - definitely won't be back. At this point you need to make major adjustments (I should imagine) to the last one or two episodes of S3 in order to kill Mitchell off.

    You think you know who you've got on board for S4 and start writing that. Then, as we now know, Russell tells you he wants to leave too. OK so that's a big pain but you haven't finished writing S4 yet so not as bad as being told half way through filming the series.

    This is where it gets difficult. I, for one, don't know who decided that Sinead had to go. Was it LT, was it Sinead? I don't think we know - but people seem to be assuming that it wasn't her decision not to *be in it*. But lets for argument sake say it was Sinead's decision. At this point it is getting serious because it's going to mean a lot of rewriting and you've obviously got limited time, budget, etc.

    What would you have done.

    It's a shame that you aren't loving the show as much as in the past but hopefully that'll change as the series progresses. x

  • Comment number 57.

    55. Sorry Inch but I just said in my post that I am not hating anything here...just seems to be important that ppl's different opinions are respected.

    I am not the first to bring this issue up

  • Comment number 58.

    I was crying so much when I read this. Love that this year there are lots of blog 'extras' that only us dedicated bloggers can see.
    I'd just like to thank Rebecca for her hard work over the last couple of weeks (and more to come), LT who is just plain brilliant and all of the cast and crew of BH.

  • Comment number 59.

    51 SaranbethBell - I can't believe you wrote that comment - it doesn't even sound anything like you and I have known you for a very long time! "Nice letter"? Your comment sounds more like someone else writing for you Saz!

    Provide me with evidence otherwise! NOW!

  • Comment number 60.

    57. I did read and understand your post and I do agree that everyone's opinions should be read and respected. I suppose my post at 51 was more of a reply to your comments about Eve of the War on another blog. All this blog-hopping is clearly getting to me.

  • Comment number 61.

    Sorry Manc but again I want to feel I can express my opinion on the blog - isn't it what the blog is for - even if that means not sugar coat everything I say for the sake of whom? Not really sure.

    This is a place to keep the discussion open abt the Series, and if pp are driven away because they feel they cannot express any doubts of contrasting opinion, than the whole point of the blog is lost. And maybe that is way compared to the previous years less ppl feel inclined to comment...

  • Comment number 62.

    People! We have to allow this platform for ALL kinds of views and commentary here. It was mentioned last week a phrase which struck a chord with me 'Blog Police' well all I'm saying is that if some people are vociferously defended for being alternative in their views and posts on this blog then why should it be different rules for anyone who may have an opinion which swims against 'the apparently accepted ' view? Personally, and I have said this before, I feel that nina's lack of photo as a departure blog ( Russell and Aidan had their pictures up) and the wiping away of her character in a few lines was not the most elegantly written departure, whatever the circumstances. Vale has a valid alternative view which does not marry with some. Tant pis. Neither does mine. Am I to be brought to brook and admonished too? Free speech for some but not others does not suit any adult well, Manc.

  • Comment number 63.

    61 I am still waiting for that DM to confirm that you are writing these comments yourself Saz.... not happening though, is it?

  • Comment number 64.

    Hello RM. Lovely to see you. It is true - sorry but the letter was soooo sad and moving - have you read it yet? - that I do feel a bit touchy about the criticism of the letter - you see - until I read that letter - I actually wasn't that bothered about losing George - like he said - he had come to the end of his story - for Me.

    Oh well, *sigh* The floor is yours.... off you go.... criticise away...

  • Comment number 65.

    63 I really don't understand what you mean. Do I have to pretend to agree with everyone else? I haven't said anything rude, or bad or highly controversial.

    I am reading all the new posts and watching the content release like everyone else. Just don't like to be probed into having to say I love everything to bits.

    That would mean not to make any constructive comments. Its just up to what you think, I don't see anything wrong in disagreeing on some points.

    And none can deny that this letter is to a certain extent similar to the one McNair wrote to Tom when he knew he could have died while fighting Herrick...

  • Comment number 66.

    Well said Saraneth!

    I have questions about the letter too ( and yes Mancs this is from me!)

    What is George trying to tell Eve about Mitchell? that he was a vampire who did horrible things? or that he a good man who looked after George?

    And why does George not talk about being a Werewolf? The address on the envelope suggests that George is expecting Eve to be with his parents and questions in the letter whether she knows Annie, so it's possible no one has even told Eve about the werewolf curse. (and do we know absolutely that Eve is not a werewolf ?( it maybe something you grow into :-))

    It was George's biggest burden, so why isn't he concerned as to whether Eve has got it too?

  • Comment number 67.

    59. Awww, I think SaranbethBell is just making the point that all shades of opinion can be freely welcomed on here and all have equal value in being raised and discussed - as long as they are politely expressed of course. After all, it would get a bit dull around here if we all thought exactly the same, wouldn't it!

  • Comment number 68.

    And for the record - since it seems I have to justify my opinions - In a way I thought that the 3rd season should have been the last for all the original characters, no matter the re-commission, unexpected decision for AT to leave and all. The BT20 set things in motion which meant that the life of all of the 4 original character could never be the same again.

    For me George had competed his story last season, and by killing Mitchell he proved it. He was his own man, not in need of direction anymore. Nina was his present and future (RT also said something similar in the extra contents of the DVD boxset).

    I would have been very happy to see them drive into the sun and not appear in S4 at all. And just have a new set of characters from the start, and a new story line.

    Don't see anything bad in the change, in fact I look fwd to move over the patchy ending of G&N and see Tom and Hal in action.

  • Comment number 69.

    66 Drunkkath had similar thoughts. If he intended his father to open the letter...it's still not much to go on if Eve has been raised by unknowingly grandparents...and why mention Mitchell and Annie at all? Unless there was another letter for George Senior to explain a bit more...

  • Comment number 70.

    66 - Hi DK. I think George is trying to tell Eve that Mitchell was both things but that ultimately he was always going to fail as all vamps will. He then says to stay away from them. I don't think he's addressed the fact that Eve is a ww because he has assumed that she will be one - he was surprised when Griffin told him that Eve didn't *change* at full moon. I suppose he thought that by the time she was reading this letter she'd have known all about that side of her. Also, I don't think that this letter was going to be put into the envelope that we see. I think there may be something in there for his father too.

    As for Eve being or not being a ww - you are correct - we don't know. Personally, I think she will be but that it won't kick in until puberty maybe? Not sure on that one really but I do think that the ww gene has survived in her.

    Only my thoughts. Be interested to see what other folks think.

  • Comment number 71.

    67 Jac_E thanks, that's exactly what I meant :0)

  • Comment number 72.

    71 - Jolly good - glad that's sorted out.

  • Comment number 73.

    70 - maybe she will be special because she will be able to transform at will? rater than being tight to moon cycles

  • Comment number 74.

    72 I did think I had been clear enough....

  • Comment number 75.

    70.Hiya Sasha

    Maybe he should have expanded a bit more about who Mitchell was cos he doesn't really say enough to explain him to Eve.

    Wouldn't he have written something about being sorry that she has the WW curse too? ( remember how upset he was when he found out he had given it to Nina?)

  • Comment number 76.

    74 - No you weren't - you sound like a total stranger to me - Saz would have sent me a DM 30 mins ago - with *cartwheels* and cupcakes - she would never have said those things in that vicious way - don't know who you are - but Saz?

  • Comment number 77.

    75 - Yeah fair point about the ww thing. But I don't really think he'd have thought she would be brought up by his parents. How would they have coped? He knew they could never protect her from the vamps. I think he did assume and hope that Annie would be there for Eve. In fact, if the letter was written after Tom arrived, then maybe he knew that Tom would care for Eve too? It is, indeed, a knotty one.

    As for Mitchell - well Goerge does say in the letter that he hopes she can find a friend as good as Mitchell - that says quite a lot, I think.

  • Comment number 78.

    77. But the envelope is addressed to George Sands Snr, so he must be expecting them to have some sort of role in Eve's life.

    He says he hopes she can find a friend like Mitchell after describing how he has let him down, betrayed him and taken a lot of people with him when he fell. If I was Eve I'd be scratching my head at that point, wondering what George was trying to tell me

  • Comment number 79.

    76 - Manc I didn't say anything vicious, maybe you should re-read my post. Most ppl have and have understood and agreed.

    I don't see why I should DM. I didn't say anything personally offensive to u, haven't I? In fact I would never even think of doing such a thing. Don't see why, that's really not me.

    I do find offensive that what your comments imply is that my opinions are wrong and vicious, and therefore I should not be allowed to think or express them.

    And now please, just accept that I can disagree with and move on, I don't think that the blog needs this kind of boring discussion, when all I was doing was expressing my - apparently very controversial - take on the latest blog entry.

    And just to show you that my opinion is not a lonely star, but have been expressed by more official sources, you could read the review of the 1st Ep on different websites (might be mobbed) such as:



  • Comment number 80.

    78 - Maybe I'm reading it wrong, but I took it to be that that that was the vamp side of him Mitchell - George says he hoped Eve would find a friend as good a friend as Mitchell was when he wasn't in vamp mode? Does that make sense? Not sure if explaining myself properly.

    As for the envelope to his dad - maybe we'll get more info on this. Didn't his dad think George was mentally ill when he told him he was a ww? I can't see that writing a letter along the lines 'By the way I really am a ww and here is your ww granddaughter. Take care of her and protect her from vampires' would be taken in any way seriously by George's parents. Could be wrong though - maybe that's were George intended her to go - but I think that he would want her to be looked after and protected by other supernaturals.

  • Comment number 81.

    80.George doesn't make the distinction clear and remember Eve might know absolutely nothing about Mitchell ( especially if she doesn't have Annie looking after her)

    The letter was written to Eve not her Father, but perhaps posted there cos it's considered a 'safe house' I think George says he hopes she is with Annie and others but obviously not confident that will happen ( and given the death rate recently, am inclined to agree with him)

    I'm surprised how rational the letter is (has even included some jokes) given George's state of mind and how emotional he is in Ep 1

  • Comment number 82.

    80 - Sorry to many *thats* in that (haha) post!

  • Comment number 83.

    82 - And that should've been *too* - slapped wrist for me.

    81 - I don't think the letter has been posted Kath - I noticed it hadn't been stamped and the actual letter hasn't been folded to fit the envelope (didn't spot that but Sea did!). I think the letter has been found in HH by Annie or Tom when they return from Stoker's. That and the fact that George has asked them both to look after Eve will be what keeps Annie *grounded* - otherwise she'd have gone up in a puff of smoke? Maybe we'll see her/him/them find the letter in Ep 2? Not too long to find out I'm wrong :-) Let's face it, it wouldn't be the first time.......!

    Going out shortly for a few hours - have a happy Friday night all!

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  • Comment number 85.

    Dear Eve
    I hope that this is a waste of time. That I am simply paranoid and that I will write this and then live a long and happy life. Better yet, I hope that I am reading this with you. That you've found it in some old shoe box and asked me, you're grey haired silly old father, what it is. That would be wonderful. Then we could just dismiss this as some pointless thing I wrote when I was younger. When I feared for our lives. It would be lovely if we could laugh about this together.

    But there is a good chance you're reading this alone.

    It breaks my heart to think that might be the case. That I will never see you grow. Never hear you laugh. Good God, that I will never even hear you speak.

    And worse than that, that you could grow up without us. Never knowing your parents, beyond photographs, beyond stories. It's a massive void to fill that this letter can never hope to fill. But there are some things I need to tell you.

    I had a friend, a good friend, called Mitchell. He was a Vampire, but ignored the traditional rivalry between our groups and opted instead for the crazy idea of just seeing me as a man called George. We had each others backs. And for a while we were happy.

    Good friends can be as strong as family. And they can be as bad as family. They can mess you up and let you down and drive you insane. But you have to keep trying, you have to keep trusting, because if you allow the let-downs and the betrayals wear you down and close off your heart, then the darkness has won.

  • Comment number 86.

    The darkness won with Mitchell. Ultimately what he was won over who he was. A “good” Vampire is a lovely idea, but they are fighting what they are, their basic drive, on an daily basis. And sooner or later they always fall. Mitchell fell and he took a lot of people with him.

    All the same, I hope you find a friend as good as Mitchell. I just hope it isn't a Vampire.

    Despite my experience with him I implore you, stay away from them. He was the exception, not the rule. They killed your mother and probably killed me, which should be reason enough.

    I suppose we had a good run, our messed up little family. Me your mother, Mitchell and Annie.

    Annie she was the heart of our little group. The warmest, kindest, obsessive maker of tea I've ever known. She lived more life after she died than most people do before. Is she still around as you grow? Is it selfish of me to hope she is? I suppose she has to pass over one day. Part of me wonders whether she's stayed around as long as she has because she knows on some level that we need her.

    I want to write more. I want to keep going until I run out of paper and ink and daylight, but I realise that this letter can never be long enough. It wants to take years to write and years to read and then I realise *that it* (crossed out) what I really want is not to write you a letter but to raise you. See you grow. Tell you everything I know in person, at the point when you need it most. And if this letter means anything to you now, then that hasn't happened.

  • Comment number 87.

    But I must talk about your mother before I go. Brave little dynamo, my Nina. Fearless. Hard like a diamond. A smile like the sun. Who always cut through the lies we tell ourselves in every situation. Who would do the right thing even when it hurt. A tiny marvel who had only one moment of insanity on the day she picked me.

    I wonder, will you grow up to look like her? That would make me so proud and break my heart at the same time, I hope at least, that you get her ears nor mine.

    Making a joke on this page is a strange thing. I write it now and smile, setting it down and then years later it unfolds in your mind and perhaps you smile, perhaps laugh. Perhaps cry.

    Death is different for us. For those of us who know, beyond any doubt, that there is something beyond the physical. That something lives on. And you would think, given all I have seen, all that I know, that your mothers death would not have quite the same sting. But it does. It does.

    I hope she still lives on somewhere else, that she waits for me. Maybe as you read this, we wait for you, watching over you from the other side. It's not too much to hope for, is it?

    There is so much more I want to tell you but these words seem hollow on the page. They're not big enough for my feelings, for what I want to say, but I will say them anyway:

    Wherever you are, whoever you have become we are proud of you.

    Your father,


  • Comment number 88.

    As per usual Ewan is the resident translator

  • Comment number 89.

    I'm honestly surprised no-one else did it still, a very sobering moment. this is how he says good bye maybe in a brief moment of lucidity. before he returns to his borderline state he'd been living in for two weeks.

  • Comment number 90.

  • Comment number 91.

    Well I guess we could all read it (somehow). I guess he saw eventually saw the reality of what was happening and felt the need to put down the stake, have a shave and write that loving letter. (I couldn't help but notice that he had rather short facial hair for him supposedly not shaving for 2 weeks)

  • Comment number 92.

    less than mine after one week so yes.

    Also new blog ------->

  • Comment number 93.

    This broke my heart in two.

  • Comment number 94.

    Thanks for the 'heads up' Ewan!

  • Comment number 95.

    This is so upsetting! It's hurts to imagine the pain you'd feel, just having to write something like that. :'(

  • Comment number 96.

    I think the letter is addressed to his father purely because he hopes that he would be able to hold on to it for a few years for him until Eve is old enough to read it. It's safer there, surely? And less likely to be lost.

  • Comment number 97.

    Thank you for all the thanks. It's a long long and busy day looking after BH, and difficult to take over from the much loved Barry - as I'm sure you can imagine. Someone had to.. and I'm doing my best. I hear and read everything and sometimes it isn't easy to figure out the best approach.

    Guys. This stuff is emotional, but everyone must be able to speak their mind - otherwise it wouldn't be awesome. x

  • Comment number 98.

    (Spoiler!) He didn't name her Eve until the end of the first episode

  • Comment number 99.

    97. Well said. BP did leave some v big footprints but am sure your stillettos will fit perfectly in them.

    As you said v emotional time, lots of changes and we wouldn't get so worked up about it if we didn't all care what happened to BH.

  • Comment number 100.

    :-) Yes @drunkkath ! Bring on the debates :-)


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