9th of September (4th blog entry)
My apologies - this is going to be a rather short blog entry!
(my landlord need his computer in 30 minutes)
I feel very demoralised!
I had my first session of micro teaching today. Micro teaching means basically teaching to your own fellow students and be supervised by one of the teacher trainers.
I was terrible nervous and made many really stupid mistakes. Watching me, no one could have believed that I ever stood in front of a classroom before.
Well - it's a long time since my teaching got evaluated and I felt very self-conscious. Teaching in a foreign language is of course a challenge, especially when this language is subject of your teaching.
All my fellow students (in that group) did a wonderful job, although most of them were real "greenhorns" to teaching; and I the old veteran behaves like an absolute yokel (an uneducated and unsophisticated person).
I feel I have failed myself, but there is no use of/in pitting yourself!
Tomorrow is another day!
And I will try to do better the next time!
"The art of living is - to get always back on your horse, after you have been thrown off!" (I don't remember who said that, but I try to live by this maxim.)
Simon - you are right, this course IS very demanding!
We have sessions until 5:30 (and barely any breaks between). I come "home" and cook myself a dinner and go in my room to make homework for another 2-3 hours. The weekends a reserved for writing reports and more homework and additional reading.
I hope I can keep up that pace (and I hope they don't increase the strain they put on us already).
I consider myself a diligent student but even I have limits somewhere!
Simon - can you please explain me the difference between syllabus and curriculum? You are not the first one I asked, but no one could give me a satisfying answer so far.
My main objective during the next days is to deal with my increasing doubts, whether I'll succeed to pass all requirements to obtain the CELT (Certificate of English Language Teaching).
Bye for now!
(next time hopefully in higher spirit!)
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