I cannot give you one more chance
You've drained it out of me.
I've nothing left inside to give
So please just leave me be.

You've left me twice, you'll leave again
The trust I had has gone.
It's painful now, but I am sure
I'll cope just being one.

No amount of pleading
Will make me change my mind.
I need to find myself again
The relationship's a bind.

I'd wake up every morning
Thinking could this be the day?
That yet again you'd walk on out
And go your selfish way.

I'd convince myself that Yes, he's changed
And welcome you back home.
I realise now you'll stay the same
And always be alone.

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Beautiful you

I saw you yesterday.
Beautiful you.
Drinking coffee and smoking a cigarette.
I caught shy glimpses of you laughing.
Happy you.
Do you know what you do to me?
I very much think not.
You smiled at me
Asked how I was.
I smiled back
Worried that you would notice
How much I was shaking.
I had a cigarette.
Unusual - I'm not a smoker
But I had to focus
Or I would have held you in my eyes
For longer than is acceptable
For ex lovers.
We shared a conversation
Just a chat.
But words I will replay
When I relive those moments of yesterday
In private contemplation.
I know these feelings will pass.
What I don't know is when.

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No chance
Can you ever look at me
With that much love again?
Without the pain that filled your eyes
When you asked me when?
Your words were lost in silent hurt
It killed me just as much
To tell you of my faltering
Please just let me touch.
I want to take the pain away
I know I put it there.
I don't deserve another chance
But I've laid my soul to bare.
If you forgive me I'll be yours
And we can start again.
You mean everything to me
You are my bestest friend.
Reaching out to take my arm
Confusion masks your face.
You pull away before we touch
I know I've lost my case.
The pain is overwhelming
As you walk away from me.
I wish that I could fall asleep
And wake up yesterday.
My agony is just desserts
For hurting you that way.
I'm waiting for your wounds to heal
Hope you'll come back, one day?