"Unaccustomed as I am to public speaking" - that's how lots of people start their speeches in public. It's become a bit of a joke, but it's not joke to me. I am terrified of speaking in public because of general lack of confidence. This lack of confidence developed during my time at secondary school. It started as a general fear of getting into trouble even though I never actually was in trouble ever.
This fear diminished as I applied for a drama course which I had become interested in. During my time on the course, I had no apprehensions of acting infront of a group or class, even when I acted as the role of King of the Fairies. However, after that my confidence shot down. There is no explanation for this, maybe it was the switch to college that did this or that it had never left and had developed bubbling inside of me waiting to be released. I was afraid of doing new things but here I am doing something very new. I was afraid of going to clubs or pubs. I'm still not too happy about that.
My tutorial lecturer questions but I have discussed this story at length with my lecturer why I'm still in one piece. I was afraid of speaking in public but that's exactly what I'm doing now. Perhaps I am getting over it.