Eating Disorders

Lottie, 16
I have been suffering from a binge eating disorder for about six months now and have really had enough of it, I keep reading that i need to seek proffessional help, but i really don't see that as an option. I want to recover but the truth is that i know im going to have to do it by myself. Is this possible and if so does anyone have any tips?

Faydra , 14
I think i have an eating disorder coz i starve my self every day and the bits that i do eat make me feel sick. I used to be bulimic and now im addicted to starving. What should i do?

Hayzel, 16
I have been anorexic for the past 2 and half years now, and all its done is gotten worse. Ive lost about 1 and a half stone and everytime i go to eat, something inside me tells me I shouldnt. I always plan what I eat next and it really does control my life. There isnt a day i dont think about it and gets me down all the time. Im glad I have my friends and family to support me through this, but even them do not understand what I am going through so i do get lonely. At first i thought i was a freak but now i know that there are lots of people out there with the same worries and problems. This site has really helped, thanks xxxx

Georgia, 14
For a year and a half now i have had an eating disorder and have suffered from what my friends reckon is bulimia. My mum told me that she thought I could do with losing some weight and as a teenager you would take that very personally. I went from 12st2 (I know huge!) to now 10st5 and am still losing weight. I'm still battling it along with 3 other girls in my class at school. I now eat a bit more, I dont eat breakfast, have a roll for lunch and am forced to eat a big plate of dinner every night (except wednesday) and I do alot of dancing still. Only 3 friends know and none of my family know. I am planning on telling them but on a serious note, if you think you may have an eating disorder, DO NOT keep it to yourself! tell your best friend in confidence that you think you might and if she/he is a good friend like you think then they will try and help you.Good luck to anybody who has or knows someone who has an eating disorder. They are life-changing.

Laura, 15
Im recovering from anorexia.. 2007 i was really unhaooy about my weight, i was becoming a bridesmaid, and wanted to shred a few pounds to look good in my dress. at first my mum didnt mind me dieting. she thought i wudnt give up the chocolate or chips..but i dunno relli it became out of control.. i became very depressed, nearly ended my life..i argued constantly with my parents.. all because off food.It seems as food is always on my mind.December i was at my lowest.i was addmited to hospital weighing just a 5.5 stone.. id lost 4.5 stne in a matter of months. but the worst thing was i couldnt see i was thin. i was unhappy with my look.waned to e thinner:( i spend xmas in a childrens ward..tubes.drips.it was awful..i spent roughly 4mnths in hospital..then eventually the weight picked up.. well in 4 onths i gained a stone..so i was still underweight.I found it hard going to school, people whispering.saying hurtful comments.I Hope everyone out there who reads this.. realises Anorexia is a controling illness,its not as easy to get better.. Nd comment actually do hurt .X

unknown, 16
When I was 14, I was going out with a guy who made me feel quite intimidated about my wieght. He never explicitly said I was fat but he had a relationship with another girl who was deffiantly skinnier than me and the relationship was still going on when we started going out. Because I liked him so much, I starved myself to make him like me more than her and i soon slipped into spiralling wieght loss and my friends & family were concerned. I went to the docters and was put on anti-depressants and also admitted to a clinic & councillor. This helped loads but it took a long time to recover from. At 5st I realised enough was enough...my wieght loss had resulted in depression, suidical thoughts and the typical 'i think i'm fat' crap. So, I decided to break up with my boyfriend and now 2 years on, i couldn't be happier. I'm 5ft 6 & size 10 and loving it! there are still days when I think 'oh my gosh you needa loose wieght!' but i've learnt to love food! GOOD LUCK IN BEATING DAMN EATING DISORDERS!!!!! xoxoxo

Kate, 15
I think i have an eating disorder. I think I've lost nearly 2.5 st but i feel fatter now than i did before. Everyone tells me that I should eat I know they're trying to help but at the time it makes me angry. I have tried to start eating agin a couple of times but then I look in the mirror and feel disgusted. Please don't let yourself get like this it hurts everyone.

katy, 15
i don't really like what's written on the actual page here. it only says people have eating disorders because they don't want to be fat. when actually theres much more to it. it's obvious whoever wrote it has NEVER had an eating disorder. i think its very insulting as i was anorexic for about 4 years, and even now i'm sometimes sick after meals. it's hard to explain why i do it, as i know i'm still underweight from the anorexia and don't like the way look. (i'm only just 6 stone, but i'm putting weight on now) for me it's more about control, if something goes wrong or upsets me, my natural way to put some control into my life is by controling my food. i still get really depressed about it & cry a lot. after youv'e properly had an eating disorder it controls your life, & i don't think i'll ever get fully better. my best way to describe myself at the moment is an anorexic that eats, because anything can set me off again, i'm lucky i have really supportive family, friends & boyfriend, & i'm trying really hard as i hate to see him upset after a relapse. i just hope others have as much support as i have, because it's a long way up. for anyone with an eating disorder, good luck! :)

Lucy, 15
I found out that my friend self harms and is anorexic. It was a huge blow, i was drunk when she told me and i just started crying. Not the way to react. I didn't know what to do, as I couldn't ever imagine doing that to myself. It sounds bad and I know how stupid it was but I began to change my eating habits. I didn't eat for 2 days and rejected any help for the 3 weeks after. What i did was stupid. I did it so i would know. I wanted to know her pain, her lows, her feelings. I wanted to help. It didn't. I got hooked I ended up throwing up after meals. I managed to stop it after a week or so. Im so thankful for my self-control. Im very good at keeping control. I refuse to let myself go back to that. Now i help my friend by talking and giving her confidence. I have stopped and I feel better for it. My friend stopped self-harming but is still very conscience of what she eats. People do the right thing and don’t get involved with eating disorders.

ben, 15
great page and comments. Does the list apply if you are trying to gain weight (muscle). I do some of the things listed but is that an eating disorder (hope not a stupid q.)?

Hannah, 19
I suffered from an eating disorder when i was 13 for 4 years i weighed 3-4 stone and looked horrible. i went into hospital 3 times the first time i put on weight and then lost it when i'd come out but the second and third time i used to get up eat breakfast, go to the toliets and puke then run for an hour on the spot and the same after lunch and tea. when i collapsed once they fed me through a tube and when i woke up a ripped out the tube because i was desperate not to put on weight. i still have it but it isn't as bad and i weigh 6-7 stone but am a bit happier its gradually getting better with help from my boyfriend but i will never be totally confident. please don't start worrying about calories because it holds onto you and will never let go.

Grace, 17
I started suffering froom bulimia when i was 15. Admittedly i tried to stop eating altogether but i found that hard so the only thing i could think to do was make myself sick after meals. It didnt work. I have now been suffering from bulimia for a year and a half but i am finally making a recovery although i still feel the urge now and again. I am not the thinnest of girls but i have found a different way to cope, by joining weight watchers. Now i am steadily loosing the weight whilst being monitored which is exactly what i need, aswell as the psychiatrict help i am still waiting for. But if anyone is reading this thinking whether bulimia or anorexia could help, believe me it doesnt. These last years have been the worst of my life and i wouldnt even put my worst enemy through it. I hate myself for letting myself get this way, at my age i should enjoy myself,not constantly worry about how i look. Please dont let yourself get to the point where weight is everything. Just look around and see what u have, friends, family, a future.

Ceri, 17
My best friend is anorexic and for the past year i've watched her suffer with everyone telling her to eat. I've done whatever i can do to help and whenever i'm around her, i just try to cheer her up, let her moan to me and just have good laugh. This seems to be helping as many people have noticed she is starting to put on weight again. I can only hope that she continues to put weight back on and go back to her normal self again

Rachael, 18
i suffered initially with anorexia and then with binge eating disorder. It has taken me about a year to counterract my bingeing habits by eating regular meals and resisting the urge to binge.. to someone without an eating disorder that would seem incredibly easy. but sticking to 3 normal meals a day like a healthy person has been so difficult... but now it is not difficulty. My body and mind have almost recovered, and i do need to search for comfort in food anymore. My advice to anyone is NEVER mess around with your eating habits.. once you do there is a lot of work involved in putting them right again.,

anon, 25
i came accross this page by accident, and i'm glad i did. i've been suffering with anorexia and bulimia since i was 13. i tend to go through cycles.it starts with anorexia and then when i'm made to eat it turnes into bulimia. it has destroyed my entire life.i'm now 25 and i'm still suffering. For all of you out there who are suffering and are being offered help...GRAB IT WITH BOTH HANDS. i'm not saying it's easy, but it's definately worth it. i've been in and out of hospital, and even tube fed quite a few times,but i wasn't ready to accept the help. now that i am ready it doesn't seem to be available. PLEASE GET THE HELP WHILSTE YOU CAN..AND MOST IMPORTANTLY USE IT!!!! Good luck

Vanessa, 29
I've suffered with bulemia for 13 years now. It is a horrible disease!!! My teeth look horrible and my skin and hair too! It's so hard to stop something that you've been doing for so long so if you think about doing it don't! It's definately not worth it at all! My metabolism is messed up now and I'm not even skinny anymore and still keep throwing up! I hate my life because of it!

Samantha, 19
I came extremely close to an eating disorder last year. One little comment from my mother about having a "big bum" began a spell of restricting what I ate, to a point where I knew exactly how many calories I was consuming every day, and what I would eat the next day. I lost nearly 2 stone. It was terrible when I suddenly realised what I was doing to myself, and I still have panicky moments where I worry about how much I have eaten. I was one of the lucky ones but please don't fall into this trap. I am far happier now being slim and healthy, rather than skinny and miserable! :)

HannaH, 16
I suffered from an eating disorder two years ago, and it was the worst thing in my life. I couldn't control anything and I wanted to get better, but I didn't have the strength to. It got so bad I ended up collapsing in school, and that was the wake-up call I needed. I went into an ED Clinic where they helped me get better and to not hate yourself for who you are. I'm recovered now but everything I do is a milestone compared to how it used to be.

Voshka, 17
I'm very almost 18 and started having problems when I was 14. NOw though, I still struggle and it's infruriating; I always thought I'd grow out of it but soon I'll be an adult and it's still a problem. I still am childish over calories, fat and food in general. I've been so depressed about it and wish I could've stayed happy. I'm making iprovements but Bulimia really won't budge, the thing is though, people often forget it's not about food at all.

Laura, 17
The world needs to change not us. I was a normal girl but then after loosing 5 stone the healthy way, i just feared i would out it all back on. Please, don;t turn to ED'S because they don;t help you at all. I have anxiety, depression and bulemia. More help needs to be given to people with eating disorders before it is too late for them. I have been doing CBT and find it a great help but at the end of the day its up to me to end this problem ruining my life. xx

shannon, 12
I think i've developed an eating disorder as i feel sick whenever i eat food and faint because i dont today my parents forced me to eat some beans and i almost threw them up again.Any one with the same problem should see a GP BEFORE this happens not when it gets worse like me.

muppetfeatures(:, 15
At the age of 7 i had my first attack of annorexia with is a scaryage to be dieting. Thing was, I was too young to understand how food worked and about calories and all i rememeber was just developing a fear of food. This lasted for two years and I neva gained any weight. THe problem was that my mum is forever on a diet and I rememeber picking up on things about calories. I cant rememeber how I got better but I think i just started to enjoy food again!" My second relapse was when I was 11 and it lastest a year and a half! But I was older and I knew far more about food and what you shouldnt eat too much. I took this to the extreme and started dieting. I got to under 4 stone when most were around 6 and I slowly felt worse and I hated myself. I soon had councilling regularly and it seemed to take ages to get better. I did though and I was so lucky. However, i was never happy during the whole time! i was always cold, i use to get ankle ache and struggled to work, I hated sport, aqnd i had no confidence. Its not worth it and i hate seein other people go through it..If your in a situation like this just think if you stop for yourself , try and think about the people who love you!! Gd luck to any people who are suffering and well done for the people who pulled through!

victoria, 15
ive suffered from anorexia im recovering now and feel alot better with my weight than ever before im a size 8 now but i dropped 2 dress sizes and i didn't look pretty when i saw pictures of myself, not onli does it stress you out but your miserable all the time be happy with your weight because its just not worth it.

lana, 14
i have always been a really fussy eater but reacently my mum and dad have been going craz at me for not eating my meals . my mum made me go to the dietitions before but she said nothing was wrong .. most of the times i just dont want food .. is that bad ?

Jay, 17
People DONT chose to get eating disorders. it starts as a method of control, i could control myself not to eat lunch, but then in the end its the ED that controls you. ive had anorexia for 2 years, and however much i want to recover my ED wont allow me, its hell.

Ali, 15
Ive had aanorexa for about 4 and a half years and have been in hospital twice and had a tube stuck in my arm once. it isn't nice, ad im falling back again and am feeling weak and faint and i absolutely hate it. Please don't do it, I have wasted almost half of my teenage life worrying about my weight instead of having fun.

Lydia, 12
well, if i must be honest, yes everybody likes to be thin but there is a difference between scarely thin and healthely thin. if you do want to lose weight get advise eat healthy not eating nothing all day, because if you do let it get to you, anerexia will have beaten you, it is a disease and why would you risk your life to be thin, why cant everybody be happy with what they look like or what is on the inside ? .. we need to make a difference NOW ! before it is to late.

Hanna, 14
I developed annorexia a few years ago.It started when i was 7 and i had lots of puppy fat and i felt so horrible and fat.I cant remember how i lost the weight, its like it all got blanked out of my mind.I dropped to four stone and looked like a skeleton.But when i got thinner i started feeling better cos of dropping dress sizes. Today im still battling annorexia but there are lots of side effects to it. I usually feel depressed and cry at least once a day, i have attempted suicide a couple if times. I'm lucky to not have stopped my periods though.Im now determined to reach 8 stone in a couple of months.I recently got to 7 stone but lost five pounds and felt terrible of it.Whoever you are dont worry about your body too much or else you'll face the serious consequences.

Jennie, 15
I recently suffered from an eating disorder I lost a stone and a half from literally starving and exercising myself excessivly. Things have got a lot better and Ive put on weight but my periods still haven't returned and food is still a constant issue to me. Please dont even consider it, its one of the worst things that has happened in my life and is still a constant problem.

Sophie, 18
I've had an eating disorder since I was about 11. It's easy enough to say not to do it, but it's not a choice for most people. I didn't realise I had one becuase I was so young when it began. I was down to about 6.5st, and I'm about 5ft 11. It's not healthy, and I was ill with it. I spoke to a GP who has helped me since, but it's not an easy recovery.

Summer, 14
i have a eating diorder and it is horrible. it is really hard to stop throwing up after meal. it has become a habbit and if i dont do it i feel worse than before i ate. my friends have tried to get me to eat but i couldnt keep it down. my mum took me to a specialist and he made me eat the food and keep it down. i am trieing to stop this but its relaly really hard.it is a mistake trust me .by the way i changed my name because i would not like people to know that i have this disorder.thank you.x

Gemma, 13
about a year ago i was developing anorexia. i lost a stone. you could see my ribs, hip bones and spine. about 6 months after this i felt feeling weak. i gradually started eating again. i was lucky

Sarah, 19
Dont feel guilty for being in the middle of it, you have to want to change it yourself because it isnt healthy. Men prefer curvy women and how would you react if you arent able to have children. Life is precious, make the most of it, there is so much help there.

Carrie, 17
When i was 13 i began stressing about my weight. I skipped lunch at school and eventually started throwing up after meals. I was totally miserable and depressed. Don't do it!

**lauren , 14
i thought i was fat but i told my friends and they realli helped because i was making myself sick but they helped me stop they were really great!!

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