Depression

Anonomus, 13
Im depressed because Im worrying how to tell my parents Im bisexual! Im in my room sitting on the floor 24/7

Eamond, 20
I've never been depressed like the way your talking about it but i think people sometimes say they are depressed and stuff when they really aren't its a very easy way to get out of things and people need to wake up and get over it!

Gemma, 16
It's not as bad as alot of people here but I think I'm depressed. I've always been a quiet,shy person but I was bullied scince year 4 & then i started talking to nobody but my family and my best friend I've known since we were 7. It just got worse because I then got bullied for not speaking at school & I don't really socialize with my friend outside of school now like we used to when we were younger (she's got other friends now but I've no self confidence to make my own). Most of the time I feel as if I can deal with it day-to-day, but sometimes I think I'm going to have final break down and not get up again. But I know that my life may get better if I hang on.

Sarah, 11
I feel really upset and I don't know why. I don't want to go to a doctor. I feel I'm too young and I don't my Mum to take me. She says: "You're not depressed! You've got lots of friends haven't you, you get out and about?" I do get out and about, I even meet my mates but... I don't know! I feel so alone! I think I even have insomnia. I can't get to sleep and I keep having bad dreams. I wake up at about 4:00am every night for no reason whatsover. Sometimes (and I'm ashamed to say this) Sometimes I even sleep in the same bed as my Mum! Even worse: My cousin and best-friend are going out. My best friend, Jeremy is MADLY in love with my cousin, Millie but I'm MADLY in love with him! My Great Nan is in hospital and I have two hamsters buried in the back yard! Sometimes I even cry myself to sleep and me and my Mum keep having arguments. No-one is school likes me and all of my mates are dating someone. My life is a MESS! Please help me out!

Zoe, 14
I'm normally a very happy person, but i do have bipolar disorder so i get very low indeed. The best thing to do is talk to people.

chloe, 19
i suffer from depression and im on medication for it. its tough. i have good days but i have bad days too. it takes courage to admit it to yourself and go get help and support.

Claire, 20
I am currently suffering from depression where I have a lot of thoughts about harming myself and committing suicide. I don't feel like I really want to do anything - I prefer spending time alone in bed asleep. So many people just think I am lazy - even those people who know what is wrong but I find it so difficult to motivate myself to do anything at all - I am often late for work because I just don't feel like I can get up and face the world. I am trying to get help with it and I am on some antidepressants but its so hard.

holly, 16
i no how it feels to be depressed as ive been there the best way to deal with it is to be with someone to just be with people you trust and do things you like doin as a group x

Rosie, 15, 15
I'm depressed. I'm in love with one of my best friends, who is in turn in love with one of my other best friends. He doesn't want me and all I ever do is stay in bed asleep, or crying. I don't want to be alone any more, but I can't bear telling anybody, and nobody seems to notice anyway, even when I fall asleep in lessons because I am that exhausted. I would get help, but that would involve talking to somebody at school or at home, and I just don't want to do that.

Laura, 16
I think i am depressed. I cry myself to sleep most nights and feel very lonely and down most days. In school my friends call me 'moody' but i cant change my ways. When im not in school all i want to do is go to sleep. I spoke to my mum and explained how i felt, she just said "dont be silly your too young for depression- its just your age!" After reading this webpage i feel certain that i have some form of depression. Thanks for the comments above - i feel relieved that i am not the only feeling this way!

isabelle, 19
I fell in love with a guy in my uni. We were really good friends,revised together,hung out, and became close. We even kissed etc (which I had a massive phobia about before being with him)- I never felt so secure with anyone in my life. Things were going great-and then out of the blue he got a girlfriend and i felt so angry and upset.This was 4 months ago and i still feel really hurt.For the whole summer i was miserable, and lost all interest in the activities i usually found enjoyable.Some nights when I think about him I cry,and wonder when i'll be over him.I see him almost every day (we do the same course at uni),and i try and avoid him,but im dying to talk to him inside.I have questioned why this happened to me- I feel so low and my confidence has been shaken. I know that I do love him, and that is why i feel so hopeless and helpless every day :(

toni, 14
I found out that i suffer from depression bout 2 year ago, and know i feel like i am never going to get better. I feel like i want to drop everything and go somewhere and die inpease. I think everybody should stay strong and help each other to fight through depression. STAY STRONG.x

Sarah, 14
Thanks so much for the great advice. I think i might be suffering from a bit of depression currently but after reading this article i feel so much better and i want to change my life for the better.

Ellie, 14
My Mate moved away a couple of month ago, its proper put me down and depressed im missing her a GREAT deal, because she was the only one who understood me and shes not here anymore :( i just feel useless and not myself.. i dont really no what to do because none of my family will understand + i just have no confidence. And Some of my family have seen the change in me like my nana and dad, and i've been real mean to them lately :( and i've felt real bad afterwards, but to be honest i say im happy but deep down i'm just crying inside, just wish it were one of thoses things that would just go away, and after reading this, i've realised im depressed :/ :( x

Lea, 15
When I moved to Germany, i moved a way from all my friends, family, everything i loved...i couldn't speak the language and had to start at a german school after 1½ month. I was absolutely devistated, refused to speak to my parents, almost couldn't eat anything for about 3 months and lost a lot of weight && cried everyday because i missed my friends....I was never ''diagnosticed'' with depression but now after 3½ years i feel much better even though i still miss my friends very very much :(But i was ''lucky'',, i got out of my depression without help from anyone. If you have a depression get help :)Talk to somebody :)

Katie, 17
i just stumbled across this and until now i had always felt like alone, like no-one my age would understand, but knowing that other people are going through the same thing is really reassuring. i didnt think any of my friends would understand - and iv told about three of them and i was right they dont. but luckily i have a very understanding family, although they would be because my dad has suffered with server depression all my life (i blame alot of my depression on him - not that he can help his but it is still very difficult to live with). iv had councelling and i didn't find it helped much, iv been on anti depressants for the past two years and they have helped at times but also just made me feel numb to the world like im sleep walking or something, im still on them but am really doing alot better, i'm much more social now, i dont feel paranoid, i can actually laugh and smile now which makes me so proud of myself, and itt sounds odd to think of thoes simple things that everyone else does everyday as achievements but for people with clinical depression they really are. i felt so deparate at times and nearly attempted suiside, living my life thinking about nothing but killing myself, but i want people to know (especially younger people) you can get better. i know how hopless it feels but when you get through it (and you will) you really cant believe how amazing life can be!! i know it feels hopless but you have people that love you, pople who will undertand and help you and you can get better, just never give up hope. xx

Julie, 16
i used to be depressed for a long long long time, and i realised that it was worse at home then it was at school, i couldnt talk to anyone, and i never did. i was independant about everything i did, and it stil to this day has never been let out. but something i found that really helped, i painted my room. Completely different colours, it was like i was flushing out al the negative things that i had been through. stil i am never the same person i used to be but i am finally geting back on track! x

Emma, 25
I came to terms with the fact that I was depressed in 2005/6 in my 20's and though I didnt realsie it I've had it since I was young. Looking back to when I was 14/15 and I was really angry, depressed, and isolated. I spent 6 months in 2006 just lying in bed doing nothing. And now again I have been like this since this Feb. Its strange being like this in the Summer. I am going to deal with it and learn about it I think now. Its important to understand and accept yourself if you feel like this and that life is not as it is in the mags all the time, there is more below the surface to pple xxx

Hannah, 15
i have been suffering from deppresion for a few years now. ive tryed self harming it doesnt help so people dont do it! i started getting depressed when i split up with my boyfriend and the day after i found out i was pregnant i just sat in my room an cryed for days i stoped eating and i tryed telling my mother but she said its just part of growing up. my life just got worse i lost my child due 2 drinking every day and im still suffering from it now!

chantelle, 21, 21
i have been depressed since 2006 and it wasnt noticeable at first but then more and more things were stressing meout and i had a total breakdown. so far this year i have refused to eat or drink. ive become weak and unhealthy. i decide to drink and smoke. i wanted not to be here. and it was only until 3 weeks ago that my friend sophie said you need to get better book an appointment at the doctors and let them help you. my life spiraled out of control in 2006 after a family inncident. im just praying to god i get better and not worse. :'(

Karl, 31
When I was 14 someone tried to Kill me after my dad who used to be a copper had arrested them. At the time I couldnt speak to anyone or tell anyone how i was feeling because I was scared to look weak and needy. Ten years later I had a breakdown when the issues became to much to deal with. It took four years of help to get me back on track. I dont believe that i will ever be free of depression I just know how to deal with it. The best advice I will give anyone is try a mood diary! Keep a diary of your mood and the things that have made it bad or good for a month. Then read back through it and try and identify what makes you happy and what makes you sad. For me I was able to do things before I got depressed by avoiding the things that upset me or got me down. I now work in Mental health and Homelessness following a stint as a volunteer for Victim Support. If it wasnt for what happened to me then I wouldnt be where I am now. Happyand able to cope. See even depression can have its positives :)

louise, 16
I have had depression for a long time with out even knowing I had it! I think it started when I was about 9 or 10, and felt really down all of the time, but put on a brave face! when I was 13 i started to self harm, constantly thinking about suicide! I didnt know what to do, this went on til I was 15. but may ime last year I was having an arguement with my mum and it all came out. I broke down to tears and told all! I got so depressed I really wanted to end my life, but something in me couldnt do it! now a year on I still have to see some one from CAMHS but I feel alot better in my self, dont get me wrong I DO have down days but not as bad as they were!!! Please dont go through this alone, it really helps talking to some one like an understanding doctor or soemone you trust and get out all of your emotions and feelings! IT REALLY DOES HELP!!! xx

linda, 15
I think I'm depressed, I feel down all the time after I fell out with a lot of my friends and then my boyfriend cheated on me, but I still love him. I don't know who to tell about this, but I'm considering running away because I feel sad all the time, especially at home.

Caitlin, 16
Depression runs in our family. Two years ago I suffered pretty badly for a period of about 10months and those were the hardest days of my life. I'd find myself crying for no reason or stood at the top of the stairs with an overwhelming desire to tumble down them. I spoke with my GP and was referred to a therapist and at the grand old age of 14 was put on fluoxitine (prozac). I don't believe the counselling made any difference and was basically made to feel very guilty for how I was making my family feel. In the end I fained recovery. I felt better for a little while but then my dad started to pester me to live with him and the stress of choosing between my parents brought on a number of panic attacks. If i'm honest i'm still depressed, i'v been unhappy for years and that makes me angry. Now i just smile and make jokes hoping that no one will notice. someone once described me as 'a generally discontented person' and it's true somedays i'm distracted and might feel happy but overall my general feeling towards life is one of bitter discontentment. Gradually over time i've lost hope and faith, i don't believe that everything is going to be ok and having once been a devote catholic i now don't believe in god. I feel angry all the time because while i have felt like this for years my friends just don't notice they think that i just have a dry sarcastic humour. i'm learning to deal with it and try to 'count my blessings' i wish no one had to feel like this.

Melissa, 17
Theres nothing in your life which can be so bad that you would feel like killing yourself over, you should take every moment for granted and enjoy yourself, when you get older you will only regret it...And for all those who are bullied dont let it ruin your life, nobody should ever make you feel like killing yourself, theyre not worth killing yourself over :)

Jessica , 18
I was depressed last year, i set myslef goals for the new year and all and try focus on more things like finishing my A levels and doing well. but instead i wasted my time drinking, slef harming and taking my anger out on other people. little things would get me worked up and there would be days where i would just want to lie in bed all day and everyday. For the last couple of months i havent slef harmed, which to me is a huge step seeing as i have been doing it since i was 11 years old of age. To me, talking to people didnt work. people would try and understand but really they had no idea what i went through?... now thou i try to think about people less off then myslef and try put myslef in their shoes. Everyday im becoming more stronger and i would suggest to people to try live their lifes to the max as you never know what is round the corner ? and dont do what i and loads of other people have done which is feel down and drink your problems away. - it doesnt help your problem at the end of the day. it makes it a hell lot worse!

Stace, 13
Ive been really down and upset for a really long time now. i started self harming abour 6 months ago. ive talked to a close friend of mine about it and shes been great but its a really hard thing to get over. i dont know if im depressed but i definately feel it. just try and talk about it to someone it does make you feel better, if not a parent then a friend. its really helpful to have some support.

Sair, 25
i hate using the word depression, i hate having it, and i hate how other people dont understand it, mine is an acute depression, because its unknown and thats just the way my brain was developed! first had anti depressants when i was 18 for a year or so, now im back on them because ive had enough of anxiety and losing my jobs all the time, i have alot of friends who i talk to, but still doesnt help, ive lost people, i drink too much, and done drugs in the past, i try to deal with it as much as i can but its hard, i have night tremors and sleepwalk aswell which is scary. neway take care people.x

Female;, 15
i think iv been suffering from depression for about 2 years. it started when my mum and dad got a divorce. i go through rough patches; sometimes not eating at all for weeks, then weeks of eating and making myself sick. some nights cutting myself, and iv develpoed a terrible relationship with my mum. lately it seems to be really bad. im tired all the time, sufffer from headaches and feeling sick every night. i hate my life and want to die; but i can't bring myself to get help. i'm so embarrassed.

sharon, 29
i have been depressed but am currently taking medication for this which is helping this has been going on for about 5 years as my uncle commited suicide 6 years in june then my father done the same in july 6 years ago but now i have a lovely daughter who i look to everyday and thank my god for helping me in life.

Laura, 14
I have been depressed since Christmas 07, I have told my mum how I feel, but she said I prbably don't have depression cos' she had it when she was like 30. I have this problem of hiding my emotions and I pretend to be happy around my friends whe I'm not. Today, I had a mini breakdown and cried, so I told a friend who was there and she said to got to the doctors. I'm gonna ask mum to take me first otherwise I'll go by myself. I am just fed up of life right now and I have started to consider self harm. I will have to go to the doctors soon.

Lisa, 31
I've struggled with depression all me life. I've been committed twice. I self harm and have considered suicide. The sad thing is that I have a great life now, my husband and three kids. But I just can't stay in the present. My medications make me sleepy and tired all the time. I don't know what's worse, taking meds that don't seem to work or not taking any meds.

jayne, 14
i dont know wheter i am or not, sometimes i feel as though the worlds against me and that nothing will go right and that everyone hates me, but sometimes i feel better, but even if i still really think about it i feel really sad bascially i dont know. does this sound like depression to anyone?

nazmin, 16
ive been drepressed for bout 5 days it all started when i had an arguement with my mum. after that i would break out and cry or get angry and start shouting. when my mates us to phone i wouldnt pick it up i would really wanna talk to them but wouldnt pick it up. using this advice i hope this will help me more. thank you bbc for the advice and help. good luck everyone hope you all get better x

Ellie, 12
i dont know if im depressed or not, but this girl bullies me and turned my only friend against me, like about 5 of my teachers know, including my form tutor, everything in my life is going wrong, and im starting to think about suicide, i mean im not depressed all the time, but at skwl i am quite a lot, it feels terrible.

Louisa, 13
A few years ago my dad got depressed. He was starting to feel better and things were looking up, but then he got made redundant from his job. It got worse than ever, and then my mum got it too. We had to move all the way across the country for my dad's new job.People underestimate how hard it really is. Not only the depression itself, but what it can lead to - stuff like self-harming, and it can make a difference to other peoples' entire lives. It can cause a lot of changes.

meg, 14
ive been depressed for a while but im on the mend :) i selfharm alot.. drink loads of alocohol and smoke heavily.. but you just have to remember the good times in your life. i know it hurts real bad deep down but youve gotta look on the bright side of life and DONT EVER give up, i know its hard.. but you cant. running away from you problems just makes things worse. its better to face them & get on with your life. it takes a brave person to do this.. But ANYONE can c

John, 27
I am shocked to see people of 14 writing about depression. I recently split from my partner after 8 years and two little children. Walking away from my boys was the hardest thing I have ever done and it drove me to depression. I got to the stage where I just wanted to stay in bed and could not be bothered moving. I was late for work every day and when I got to work I could not find the motivation to do anything, I wuld just watch the clock tick away till hometime. I went to see the gp and I got perscribed some drugs. They seemed to take the edge off things and I felt better, but I started to slip again a few weeks down the line and stoped taking the pill's. This went on for about 4 months. I was sat there one night on my computer and met a girl through a dating site. We got talking and then started chatting over MSN. I would go to work and think of her all day, I slowly felt life filling my body again. I now see this girl and we get along great. I have my boys over and my relationship with them is great, and I'm doing well at work again. There is usually a reason for depression and my advice to anyone is to find that reason and hit it head on, once you have tackled the problem life won't seem as bad.

nash, 22
i was depressed for 3-4 months somemonths ago and felt that i had no hope to live but now i am fine but the experience was as hell as it could be .insomnia and not being able to eat was my biggest problem and then i started exercising a lot nomatter what and then i started gaining hope.

Sonia, 17
I think DEPRESSION SHOULD BE RECOGNISED people just think someone doesnt have the common sense and jus want attention.. people with dieseases do but not with depressions it is an illness becoz u get treatment for it like tablets to help control it also.. i have suffered from it since year 6 because i was bullied. No matter where u are and what problem you have its better out then in.

Lauren, 15
i felt really depressed recently when some stuff went wrong in my life. i turned to self harm but it really didnt help. people dont understand a lot of the time, they just think your having an off day. so if anyones friends are suffering from the depression, listen to them and dont just put it down to them being in a bad mood because its more than that

Gavin, 15
I was depressed for 5 months after Summer of 2007. I couldn't see anyway out when I was, I have got rid of most of the things that it brought on, I ended up with lack of concentration in school a sleeping and eating disorder, I still have the eating disorder. I cut myself a few times and I don't advise this to anyone, it really didn't help me feel better but yet I keep doing it, now I have to look at the scars on myself and be reminded of it, just go through it, it will get better and odn't harm yourself in any way because you will suffer the consequences when you are happy again.

no name, 14
well iv been depressed now for about a week or 5 days. ive told my mum about it and she says its just my hormones and i think she might be right. im feeling a little better now but the way to try and begin to lose it is to maybe call a friend and let them know or maybe talk to someone on a helpline..you'll feel much better goodluck xx

Roseanne
my depression went unnoticed and it orse and worse until i attempted suicide. i had to stay on a psyciatric ward for 2 months. if the depression was noticed earlier on, i wouldnt have ended up in a psyciatric hospital. im now on medication and slowly getting better but it angers me when people think you can just "snap out of it".

ANGEL,, 19
I'VE BEEN DEPRESSED FOR A LONG TIME. I'VE SEEN A COUNSELLOR. I STILL HAVE MY "DOWN" DAYS BUT THE IDEA IS TO BE IN CONTROL - UNDERSTAND WHAT YOUR FEELING AND WHY. NAME IT. IF YOUR FEELING ANNOYED/SAD, UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR FEELING THAT WAY AND WHY IT IS. THIS WILL HELP RATIONALISE YOUR THOUGHTS. WHEN DEPRESSED, PEOPLE OFTEN THINK UNRATIONALLY - SHE HASN'T TEXT ME BECAUSE SHE HATES ME AND EVERYONE HATES ME. NO, SHE IS PROBABLY BUSY, SHE HASN'T GOT CREDIT, ETC. PEOPLE DO CARE. DON'T LET YOUR "BAD" THOUGHTS STOP YOU. CONTROL THEM.

allie , 19
even when im surrounded by people i still feel alone i feel trapped in this cage and no one can help me get to the door this is what deppresion feels like but you can fight it dont let it get to you be strong in whatever you do and never be affraid to ask for help you will always have someone there for you even if you feel like your alone reach out and ask for help dont feel like you cant be strong and brave tell yourself tha t you want to get better make the effort to find someone to talk to dont feel trapped accept who you are and be proud of it dont let things get you down be confident in yuorself and you can beat this diesese.i have the deepest respect for anyone who comes on here or rings the surgury it takes a brave person to admit they have a probelem but it takes a braver person to deal with it.

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