Ellie Simmonds: I struggled for motivation after Paralympics
After the parties, parades and premieres were over, Ellie Simmonds' post- London 2012 life felt very different. It felt "flat".
How could she ever top winning at a home Games and should she go back to swimming?
"London was the best competition I've ever been in and it was sad when it was over. I was on a real low," says 18-year-old Simmonds, who will compete at the IPC Swimming World Championships in Canada next week.
"I had loads of media opportunities that came with winning at a home Games and that kept me excited for a few months, but come Christmas it really hit me hard that it was all over.
Ellie Simmonds factfile
- Date of Birth: 11 November 1994
- Disability: Achondroplasia (dwarfism)
- Classification: S6
- Height: 1.23m (4ft)
- Weight: 43kg (95lb)
- Paralympic events: 50m, 100m and 400m freestyle and 200m IM
- Paralympic Games: Four gold (two in Beijing 2008, two at London 2012), one silver and one bronze
- European Championships: Seven golds, one silver and one bronze
- World Championships : Four golds
"I had to get back to normality, but I felt a bit flat and it was tough to find the motivation for swimming."
Simmonds had rarely been out of the limelight since claiming two record-breaking titles at the age of 13 at the 2008 Beijing Paralympics and her mother, Val, was well aware of the dilemma in the teenager's mind.
"One minute she was excited because she was going off to a James Bond premiere or The Great British Bake Off - doing the things she loved - but then she'd be like 'I don't know if I want to swim'," she says.
"It was a roller-coaster because you never knew from one minute to the next what she was thinking. We just had to keep reassuring her.
"We always told her it was OK to stop, even though she was 18 years old. We told her we would support her if she didn't enjoy swimming any more - that's what she had to work out."
Simmonds returned to the pool in December, but soon came to the conclusion that if she were to set her sights on the 2016 Rio Olympics, she could not continue with the regime she had undertaken in Swansea for the last six years.
Instead, after this summer's World Championships, she will move to Loughborough, which is closer to her family home in Aldridge, in the West Midlands.
"I have been in Swansea since I was 12 with my coach Billy Pye and I don't think I would have been able to have the success that I did in Beijing and London without him," she says.
"But I want to be the best athlete I can be and I am going for a complete change to find a new stimulus heading towards Rio."
According to Val Simmonds, this single-minded determination was evident from a young age, although it initially took an unusual form.
"Right from being a toddler, whatever she did it was whole-hearted with total focus and you just had to go with it," she recalls.
"As a youngster horses were her other big passion and we had imaginary horses that lived in the garden for well over a year.
"Every morning before she went to school she insisted on feeding and watering the horses and it didn't matter how late you were running. Eleanor is the same with her school work. When she focuses on that, she shuts everything else out."
Simmonds will resume her studies when she moves to Loughborough and will focus on a psychology A-level, having become fascinated by the subject in recent years.
"I wanted to do something that is nothing to do with swimming, where I can just get away and learn about people," she says.
What does the future hold?
Simmonds has long maintained she wants to compete in five Paralympics, but is now reconsidering her long-term goals.
"I'd like to go to two more Games," she says. "Before London my aim was to go to three more, but by my fourth Games I'll be 25 and I want to have a normal life afterwards."
Simmonds has worked with sports psychologists who helped her come to terms with the level of attention she experienced leading into last year's Paralympics.
Being named as one of the "faces of London 2012" was an honour, but also something that concerned both her family and coach.
Pye, who witnessed Simmonds struggle with sickness brought about by anxiety ahead of her first Paralympic final in Beijing, saw the pressure increase in the months before the Games.
"It was a worrying time because of all the expectation of the British public," he says.
"Everything was being ramped up, with all the papers and television talking about gold medals. There were some times where we wondered how she would cope and we had to protect Ellie."
Simmonds admits that her first reaction after winning 400m freestyle gold in London was relief rather than excitement.
"People expected me to get that gold medal, but luckily pressure drives me forward, otherwise it would just cripple me," she reflects.
Simmonds believes this year's IPC World Championships will be considerably different to last year's Paralympics and, by trying out six events rather than competing in her usual four, she feels the "pressure is off".
She will add the 100m backstroke and 100m breaststroke to her schedule, which already includes the 50m, 100m and 400m freestyle events and the 200m individual medley.
Simmonds' Paralympic medals
50m freestyle - Bronze in 2012
100m freestyle - Gold in 2008, silver in 2012
400m freestyle - Gold in 2008 and 2012
200m individual medley - Gold in 2012
"It is a big experiment to see what it [six events] is like," she says.
"I don't think I'll be able to do six [events] in Rio, but hopefully the new events will help my other ones.
"To win medals [in Canada] would be amazing, but having had three months off after London may have an impact.