The Panorama Interview
This is a transcript of the BBC1 Panorama interview with the Princess of Wales, broadcast in November 1995
MARTIN BASHIR: Your Royal Highness, how prepared were you for the pressures that came with marrying
into the Royal Family?
DIANA: At the age of 19, you always think you're prepared for everything, and you think you have the
knowledge of what's coming ahead. But although I was daunted at the prospect at the time, I felt I had
the support of my husband-to-be.
BASHIR: What were the expectations that you had for married life?
DIANA: I think like any marriage, specially when you've had divorced parents like myself, you'd want to
try even harder to make it work and you don't want to fall back into a pattern that you've seen happen in
your own family.
"I want to reassure all those people who have loved me and supported me throughout the last 15
years that I'd never let them down."
I desperately wanted it to work, I desperately loved my husband and I wanted to share everything
together, and I thought that we were a very good team.
BASHIR: How aware were you of the significance of what had happened to you? After all, you'd
become Princess of Wales, ultimately with a view to becoming Queen.
DIANA: I wasn't daunted, and am not daunted by the responsibilities that that role creates. It was a
challenge, it is a challenge.
As for becoming Queen, it's, it was never at the forefront of my mind when I married my husband: it
was a long way off that thought.
The most daunting aspect was the media attention, because my husband and I, we were told when
we got engaged that the media would go quietly, and it didn't; and then when we were married they
said it would go quietly and it didn't; and then it started to focus very much on me, and I seemed to be
on the front of a newspaper every single day, which is an isolating experience, and the higher the
media put you, place you, is the bigger the drop.
And I was very aware of that.
BASHIR: How did you handle the transition from being Lady Diana Spencer to the most
photographed, the most talked-about, woman in the world?
DIANA: Well, it took a long time to understand why people were so interested in me, but I assumed it
was because my husband had done a lot of wonderful work leading up to our marriage and our
But then I, during the years you see yourself as a good product that sits on a shelf and sells well, and
people make a lot of money out of you.
BASHIR: It's been suggested in some newspapers that you were left largely to cope with your new
status on your own. Do you feel that was your experience?
DIANA: Yes I do, on reflection. But then here was a situation which hadn't ever happened before in
history, in the sense that the media were everywhere, and here was a fairy story that everybody wanted
And so it was, it was isolating, but it was also a situation where you couldn't indulge in feeling sorry for
yourself: you had to either sink or swim. And you had to learn that very fast.
BASHIR: And what did you do?
DIANA: I swam. We went to Alice Springs, to Australia, and we went and did a walkabout, and I said to
my husband: `What do I do now?'
And he said, `Go over to the other side and speak to them.' I said, `I can't, I just can't.'
He said, `Well, you've got to do it.' And he went off and did his bit, and I went off and did my bit. It
practically finished me off there and then, and I suddenly realised - I went back to our hotel room and
realised the impact that, you know, I had to sort myself out.
We had a six-week tour - four weeks in Australia and two weeks in New Zealand - and by the end,
when we flew back from New Zealand, I was a different person. I realised the sense of duty, the level of
intensity of interest, and the demanding role I now found myself in.
BASHIR: Were you overwhelmed by the pressure from people initially?
DIANA: Yes, I was very daunted because as far as I was concerned I was a fat, chubby, 20-year-old,
21-year-old, and I couldn't understand the level of interest.
BASHIR: At this early stage, would you say that you were happily married?
DIANA: Very much so. But, the pressure on us both as a couple with the media was phenomenal, and
misunderstood by a great many people.
We'd be going round Australia, for instance, and all you could hear was, oh, she's on the other side.
Now, if you're a man, like my husband a proud man, you mind about that if you hear it every day for four
weeks. And you feel low about it, instead of feeling happy and sharing it.
BASHIR: When you say `she's on the other side', what do you mean?
DIANA: Well, they weren't on the right side to wave at me or to touch me.
BASHIR: So they were expressing a preference even then for you rather than your husband?
DIANA: Yes - which I felt very uncomfortable with, and I felt it was unfair, because I wanted to share.
BASHIR: But were you flattered by the media attention particularly?
DIANA: No, not particularly, because with the media attention came a lot of jealousy, a great deal of
complicated situations arose because of that.
BASHIR: At this early stage in your marriage, what role did you see for yourself as Princess of
Wales? Did you have an idea of the role that you might like to fulfil?
DIANA: No, I was very confused by which area I should go into. Then I found myself being more and
more involved with people who were rejected by society - with, I'd say, drug addicts, alcoholism,
battered this, battered that - and I found an affinity there.
And I respected very much the honesty I found on that level with people I met, because in hospices, for
instance, when people are dying they're much more open and more vulnerable, and much more real
than other people. And I appreciated that.
BASHIR: Had the Palace given any thought to the role that you might have as Princess of Wales?
DIANA: No, no one sat me down with a piece of paper and said: `This is what is expected of you.' But
there again, I'm lucky enough in the fact that I have found my role, and I'm very conscious of it, and I
love being with people.
BASHIR: So you very much created the role that you would pursue for yourself really? That was what
DIANA: I think so. I remember when I used to sit on hospital beds and hold people's hands, people
used to be sort of shocked because they said they'd never seen this before, and to me it was quite a
normal thing to do.
And when I saw the reassurance that an action like that gave, I did it everywhere, and will always do
BASHIR: It wasn't long after the wedding before you became pregnant. What was your reaction
when you learnt that the child was a boy?
DIANA: Enormous relief. I felt the whole country was in labour with me. Enormous relief.
But I had actually known William was going to be a boy, because the scan had shown it, so it caused
BASHIR: Had you always wanted to have a family?
DIANA: Yes, I came from a family where there were four of us, so we had enormous fun there.
And then William and Harry arrived - fortunately two boys, it would have been a little tricky if it had been
two girls - but that in itself brings the responsibilities of bringing them up, William's future being as it
is, and Harry like a form of a back-up in that aspect.
BASHIR: How did the rest of the Royal Family react when they learnt that the child that you were to
have was going to be a boy?
DIANA: Well, everybody was thrilled to bits. It had been quite a difficult pregnancy - I hadn't been very
well throughout it - so by the time William arrived it was a great relief because it was all peaceful again,
and I was well for a time.
Then I was unwell with post-natal depression, which no one ever discusses, post-natal depression,
you have to read about it afterwards, and that in itself was a bit of a difficult time. You'd wake up in the
morning feeling you didn't want to get out of bed, you felt misunderstood, and just very, very low in
BASHIR: Was this completely out of character for you?
DIANA: Yes, very much so. I never had had a depression in my life.
But then when I analysed it I could see that the changes I'd made in the last year had all caught up with
me, and my body had said: `We want a rest.'
BASHIR: So what treatment did you actually receive?
DIANA: I received a great deal of treatment, but I knew in myself that actually what I needed was space
and time to adapt to all the different roles that had come my way. I knew I could do it, but I needed
people to be patient and give me the space to do it.
BASHIR: When you say all of the different roles that had come your way, what do you mean?
DIANA: Well, it was a very short space of time: in the space of a year my whole life had changed, turned
upside down, and it had its wonderful moments, but it also had challenging moments. And I could see
where the rough edges needed to be smoothed.
BASHIR: What was the family's reaction to your post-natal depression?
DIANA: Well maybe I was the first person ever to be in this family who ever had a depression or was
ever openly tearful. And obviously that was daunting, because if you've never seen it before how do you
BASHIR: What effect did the depression have on your marriage?
DIANA: Well, it gave everybody a wonderful new label - Diana's unstable and Diana's mentally
unbalanced. And unfortunately that seems to have stuck on and off over the years.
BASHIR: Are you saying that that label stuck within your marriage?
DIANA: I think people used it and it stuck, yes.
BASHIR: According to press reports, it was suggested that it was around this time things became
so difficult that you actually tried to injure yourself.
DIANA: Mmm. When no one listens to you, or you feel no one's listening to you, all sorts of things start
For instance you have so much pain inside yourself that you try and hurt yourself on the outside
because you want help, but it's the wrong help you're asking for. People see it as crying wolf or
attention-seeking, and they think because you're in the media all the time you've got enough attention,
But I was actually crying out because I wanted to get better in order to go forward and continue my duty
and my role as wife, mother, Princess of Wales.
So yes, I did inflict upon myself. I didn't like myself, I was ashamed because I couldn't cope with the
BASHIR: What did you actually do?
DIANA: Well, I just hurt my arms and my legs; and I work in environments now where I see women
doing similar things and I'm able to understand completely where they're coming from.
BASHIR: What was your husband's reaction to this, when you began to injure yourself in this way?
DIANA: Well, I didn't actually always do it in front of him. But obviously anyone who loves someone
would be very concerned about it.
BASHIR: Did he understand what was behind the physical act of hurting yourself, do you think?
DIANA: No, but then not many people would have taken the time to see that.
BASHIR: Were you able to admit that you were in fact unwell, or did you feel compelled simply to
carry on performing as the Princess of Wales?
DIANA: I felt compelled to perform. Well, when I say perform, I was compelled to go out and do my
engagements and not let people down and support them and love them.
And in a way by being out in public they supported me, although they weren't aware just how much
healing they were giving me, and it carried me through.
BASHIR: But did you feel that you had to maintain the public image of a successful Princess of
DIANA: Yes I did, yes I did.
BASHIR: The depression was resolved, as you say, but it was subsequently reported that you
suffered bulimia. Is that true?
DIANA: Yes, I did. I had bulimia for a number of years. And that's like a secret disease.
You inflict it upon yourself because your self-esteem is at a low ebb, and you don't think you're worthy
or valuable. You fill your stomach up four or five times a day - some do it more - and it gives you a
feeling of comfort.
It's like having a pair of arms around you, but it's temporarily, temporary. Then you're disgusted at the
bloatedness of your stomach, and then you bring it all up again.
And it's a repetitive pattern which is very destructive to yourself.
BASHIR: How often would you do that on a daily basis?
DIANA: Depends on the pressures going on. If I'd been on what I call an awayday, or I'd been up part of
the country all day, I'd come home feeling pretty empty, because my engagements at that time would
be to do with people dying, people very sick, people's marriage problems, and I'd come home and it
would be very difficult to know how to comfort myself having been comforting lots of other people, so it
would be a regular pattern to jump into the fridge.
It was a symptom of what was going on in my marriage.
I was crying out for help, but giving the wrong signals, and people were using my bulimia as a coat on
a hanger: they decided that was the problem - Diana was unstable.
BASHIR: Instead of looking behind the symptom at the cause.
BASHIR: What was the cause?
DIANA: The cause was the situation where my husband and I had to keep everything together because
we didn't want to disappoint the public, and yet obviously there was a lot of anxiety going on within our
BASHIR: Do you mean between the two of you?
BASHIR: And so you subjected yourself to this phase of bingeing and vomiting?
DIANA: You could say the word subjected, but it was my escape mechanism, and it worked, for me, at
BASHIR: Did you seek help from any other members of the Royal Family?
DIANA: No. You, you have to know that when you have bulimia you're very ashamed of yourself and you
hate yourself, so - and people think you're wasting food - so you don't discuss it with people.
And the thing about bulimia is your weight always stays the same, whereas with anorexia you visibly
shrink. So you can pretend the whole way through. There's no proof.
BASHIR: When you say people would think you were wasting food, did anybody suggest that to you?
DIANA: Oh yes, a number of times.
BASHIR: What was said?
DIANA: Well, it was just, `I suppose you're going to waste that food later on?' And that was pressure in
itself. And of course I would, because it was my release valve.
BASHIR: How long did this bulimia go on for?
DIANA: A long time, a long time. But I'm free of it now.
BASHIR: Two years, three years?
DIANA: Mmm. A little bit more than that.
BASHIR: According to reports in the national press, it was at around this time that you began to
experience difficulties in your marriage, in your relationship to the Prince of Wales. Is that true?
DIANA: Well, we were a newly-married couple, so obviously we had those pressures too, and we had
the media, who were completely fascinated by everything we did.
And it was difficult to share that load, because I was the one who was always pitched out front, whether
it was my clothes, what I said, what my hair was doing, everything - which was a pretty dull subject,
actually, and it's been exhausted over the years - when actually what we wanted to be, what we wanted
supported was our work, and as a team.
BASHIR: What effect did the press interest in you have on your marriage?
DIANA: It made it very difficult, because for a situation where it was a couple working in the same job -
we got out the same car, we shook the same hand, my husband did the speeches, I did the
handshaking - so basically we were a married couple doing the same job, which is very difficult for
anyone, and more so if you ve got all the attention on you.
We struggled a bit with it, it was very difficult; and then my husband decided that we do separate
engagements, which was a bit sad for me, because I quite liked the company.
But, there again, I didn't have the choice.
BASHIR: So it wasn't at your request that you did that on your own?
DIANA: Not at all, no.
BASHIR: The biography of the Prince of Wales written by Jonathan Dimbleby, which as you know
was published last year, suggested that you and your husband had very different outlooks, very
different interests. Would you agree with that?
DIANA: No. I think we had a great deal of interest - we both liked people, both liked country life, both
loved children, work in the cancer field, work in hospices.
But I was portrayed in the media at that time, if I remember rightly, as someone, because I hadn't
passed any O-levels and taken any A-levels, I was stupid.
And I made the grave mistake once of saying to a child I was thick as a plank, in order to ease the
child's nervousness, which it did. But that headline went all round the world, and I rather regret saying
BASHIR: The Prince of Wales, in the biography, is described as a great thinker, a man with a
tremendous range of interests. What did he think of your interests?
DIANA: Well, I don't think I was allowed to have any. I think that I've always been the 18-year-old girl he
got engaged to, so I don't think I've been given any credit for growth. And, my goodness, I've had to
BASHIR: Explain what you mean when you say that.
DIANA: Well, er...
BASHIR: When you say, when you say you were never given any credit, what do you mean?
DIANA: Well anything good I ever did nobody ever said a thing, never said, `well done', or `was it OK?'
But if I tripped up, which invariably I did, because I was new at the game, a ton of bricks came down on
BASHIR: How did you cope with that?
DIANA: Well obviously there were lots of tears, and one could dive into the bulimia, into escape.
BASHIR: Some people would find that difficult to believe, that you were left so much to cope on your
own, and that the description you give suggests that your relationship with your husband was not very
good even at that early stage.
DIANA: Well, we had unique pressures put upon us, and we both tried our hardest to cover them up,
but obviously it wasn't to be.
BASHIR: Around 1986, again according to the biography written by Jonathan Dimbleby about your
husband, he says that your husband renewed his relationship with Mrs Camilla Parker-Bowles. Were
you aware of that?
DIANA: Yes I was, but I wasn't in a position to do anything about it.
BASHIR: What evidence did you have that their relationship was continuing even though you were
DIANA: Oh, a woman's instinct is a very good one.
BASHIR: Is that all?
DIANA: Well, I had, obviously I had knowledge of it.
BASHIR: From staff?
DIANA: Well, from people who minded and cared about our marriage, yes.
BASHIR: What effect did that have on you?
DIANA: Pretty devastating. Rampant bulimia, if you can have rampant bulimia, and just a feeling of
being no good at anything and being useless and hopeless and failed in every direction.
BASHIR: And with a husband who was having a relationship with somebody else?
DIANA: With a husband who loved someone else, yes.
BASHIR: You really thought that?
DIANA: Uh,uh. I didn't think that, I knew it.
BASHIR: How did you know it?
DIANA: By the change of behavioural pattern in my husband; for all sorts of reasons that a woman's
instinct produces; you just know.
It was already difficult, but it became increasingly difficult.
BASHIR: In the practical sense, how did it become difficult?
DIANA: Well, people were - when I say people I mean friends, on my husband's side - were indicating
that I was again unstable, sick, and should be put in a home of some sort in order to get better. I was
almost an embarrassment.
BASHIR: Do you think he really thought that?
DIANA: Well, there's no better way to dismantle a personality than to isolate it.
BASHIR: So you were isolated?
DIANA: Uh,uh, very much so.
BASHIR: Do you think Mrs Parker-Bowles was a factor in the breakdown of your marriage?
DIANA: Well, there were three of us in this marriage, so it was a bit crowded.
BASHIR: You're effectively living separate lives, yet in public there's this appearance of this happily
married royal couple. How was this regarded by the Royal Family?
DIANA: I think everybody was very anxious because they could see there were complications but didn't
want to interfere, but were there, made it known that they were there if required.
BASHIR: Do you think it was accepted that one could live effectively two lives - one in private and one
DIANA: No, because again the media was very interested about our set-up, inverted commas; when
we went abroad we had separate apartments, albeit we were on the same floor, so of course that was
leaked, and that caused complications.
But Charles and I had our duty to perform, and that was paramount.
BASHIR: So in a sense you coped with this, these two lives, because of your duty?
DIANA: Uh,uh. And we were a very good team in public; albeit what was going on in private, we were a
BASHIR: Some people would find that difficult to reconcile.
DIANA: Well, that's their problem. I know what it felt like.
BASHIR: The Queen described 1992 as her `annus horribilis', and it was in that year that Andrew
Morton's book about you was published. Did you ever meet Andrew Morton or personally help him with
DIANA: I never met him, no.
BASHIR: Did you ever personally assist him with the writing of his book?
DIANA: A lot of people saw the distress that my life was in, and they felt it was a supportive thing to help
in the way that they did.
BASHIR: Did you allow your friends, your close friends, to speak to Andrew Morton?
DIANA: Yes, I did. Yes, I did.
DIANA: I was at the end of my tether. I was desperate.
I think I was so fed up with being seen as someone who was a basket-case, because I am a very
strong person and I know that causes complications in the system that I live in.
BASHIR: How would a book change that?
DIANA: I don't know. Maybe people have a better understanding, maybe there's a lot of women out
there who suffer on the same level but in a different environment, who are unable to stand up for
themselves because their self-esteem is cut into two. I don't know.
BASHIR: What effect do you think the book had on your husband and the Royal Family?
DIANA: I think they were shocked and horrified and very disappointed.
BASHIR: Can you understand why?
DIANA: I think Mr Dimbleby's book was a shock to a lot of people and disappointment as well.
BASHIR: What effect did Andrew Morton's book have on your relationship with the Prince of Wales?
DIANA: Well, what had been hidden - or rather what we thought had been hidden - then became out in
the open and was spoken about on a daily basis, and the pressure was for us to sort ourselves out in
Were we going to stay together or were we going to separate? And the word separation and divorce
kept coming up in the media on a daily basis.
BASHIR: What happened after the book was published?
DIANA: Well, we struggled along. We did our engagements together. And in our private life it was
BASHIR: Did things come to a head?
DIANA: Yes, slowly, yes. My husband and I, we discussed it very calmly.
We could see what the public were requiring. They wanted clarity of a situation that was obviously
BASHIR: So what happened?
DIANA: So we got the lawyers together, we discussed separation - obviously there were a lot of people
to discuss it with: the Prime Minister, Her Majesty - and then it moved itself, so to speak.
BASHIR: By the December of that year, as you say, you'd agreed to a legal separation. What were
your feelings at the time?
DIANA: Deep, deep, profound sadness. Because we had struggled to keep it going, but obviously we'd
both run out of steam.
And in a way I suppose it could have been a relief for us both that we'd finally made our minds up. But
my husband asked for the separation and I supported it.
BASHIR: It was not your idea?
DIANA: No. Not at all. I come from a divorced background, and I didn't want to go into that one again.
BASHIR: What happened next?
DIANA: We, I asked my husband if we could put the announcement out before the children came back
from school for Christmas holidays because they were protected in the school they were at.
And he did that, and it came out on December 9th. I was on an engagement up north.
I heard it on the radio, and it was just very, very sad. Really sad. The fairy tale had come to an end, and
most importantly our marriage had taken a turn, different turn.
BASHIR: Did you tell your children that you were going to separate?
DIANA: Yes. I went down a week beforehand, and explained to them what was happening.
And they took it as children do - lots of questions - and I hoped I was able to reassure them. But, who
BASHIR: What effect do you think the announcement had on them?
DIANA: I think the announcement had a huge effect on me and Charles, really, and the children were
very much out of it, in the sense that they were tucked away at school.
BASHIR: Once the separation had occurred, moving to 1993, what happened during that period?
DIANA: People's agendas changed overnight. I was now separated wife of the Prince of Wales, I was a
problem, I was a liability (seen as), and how are we going to deal with her? This hasn't happened
BASHIR: Who was asking those questions?
DIANA: People around me, people in this environment, and ...
BASHIR: The royal household?
DIANA: People in my environment, yes, yes.
BASHIR: And they began to see you as a problem?
DIANA: Yes, very much so, uh,uh.
BASHIR: How did that show itself?
DIANA: By visits abroad being blocked, by things that had come naturally my way being stopped, letters
going, that got lost, and various things.
BASHIR: So despite the fact that your interest was always to continue with your duties, you found
that your duties were being held from you?
DIANA: Yes. Everything changed after we separated, and life became very difficult then for me.
BASHIR: Who was behind that change?
DIANA: Well, my husband's side were very busy stopping me.
BASHIR: What was your reaction when news broke of allegedly a telephone conversation between
you and Mr James Gilbey having been recorded?
DIANA: I felt very protective about James because he'd been a very good friend to me and was a very
good friend to me, and I couldn't bear that his life was going to be messed up because he had the
connection with me.
And that worried me. I'm very protective about my friends.
BASHIR: Did you have the alleged telephone conversation?
DIANA: Yes we did, absolutely we did. Yup, we did.
BASHIR: On that tape, Mr Gilbey expresses his affection for you. Was that transcript accurate?
DIANA: Yes. I mean he is a very affectionate person.
But the implications of that conversation were that we'd had an adulterous relationship, which was not
BASHIR: Have you any idea how that conversation came to be published in the national press?
DIANA: No, but it was done to harm me in a serious manner, and that was the first time I'd experienced
what it was like to be outside the net, so to speak, and not be in the family.
BASHIR: What do you think the purpose was behind it?
DIANA: It was to make the public change their attitude towards me.
It was, you know, if we are going to divorce, my husband would hold more cards than I would - it was
very much a poker game, chess game.
BASHIR: There were also a series of telephone calls which allegedly were made by you to a Mr
Oliver Hoare. Did you make what were described as nuisance phone calls?
DIANA: I was reputed to have made 300 telephone calls in a very short space of time which, bearing in
mind my lifestyle at that time, made me a very busy lady.
No, I didn't, I didn't.
But that again was a huge move to discredit me, and very nearly did me in, the injustice of it, because I
did my own homework on that subject, and consequently found out that a young boy had done most of
But I read that I'd done them all. Mr Hoare told me that his lines were being tapped by the local police
station. He said, you know, don't ring. So I didn't, but somebody clearly did.
BASHIR: Had you made any of those calls at all?
DIANA: I used to, yes, I had rung up, yes.
BASHIR: Once, twice, three times?
DIANA: I don't know. Over a period of six to nine months, a few times, but certainly not in an obsessive
BASHIR: Do you really believe that a campaign was being waged against you?
DIANA: Yes I did, absolutely, yeah.
DIANA: I was the separated wife of the Prince of Wales, I was a problem, fullstop. Never happened
before, what do we do with her?
BASHIR: Can't we pack her off to somewhere quietly rather than campaign against her?
DIANA: She won't go quietly, that's the problem. I'll fight to the end, because I believe that I have a role
to fulfil, and I've got two children to bring up.
BASHIR: By the end of 1993 you had suffered persistent difficulties with the press - these phone
conversations were made public - and you decided to withdraw from public life. Why did you do that?
DIANA: The pressure was intolerable then, and my job, my work was being affected.
I wanted to give 110% to my work, and I could only give 50. I was constantly tired, exhausted, because
the pressure was just, it was so cruel.
So I thought the only way to do it was to stand up and make a speech and extract myself before I
started disappointing and not carrying out my work.
It was my decision to make that speech because I owed it to the public to say that, you know, `thank
you. I'm disappearing for a bit, but I'll come back.'
BASHIR: It wasn't very long before you did come back, of course.
DIANA: Well, I don't know. I mean, I did a lot of work, well, underground, without any media attention, so
I never really stopped doing it.
I just didn't do every day out and about, I just couldn't do it.
You know, the campaign at that point was being successful, but it did surprise the people who were
causing the grief - it did surprise them when I took myself out of the game.
They hadn't expected that. And I'm a great believer that you should always confuse the enemy.
BASHIR: Who was the enemy?
DIANA: Well, the enemy was my husband's department, because I always got more publicity, my work
was more, was discussed much more than him.
And, you know, from that point of view I understand it. But I was doing good things, and I wanted to
good things. I was never going to hurt anyone, I was never going to let anyone down.
BASHIR: But you really believe that it was out of jealousy that they wanted to undermine you?
DIANA: I think it was out of fear, because here was a strong woman doing her bit, and where was she
getting her strength from to continue?
BASHIR: What was your reaction to your husband's disclosure to Jonathan Dimbleby that he had in
fact committed adultery?
DIANA: Well, I was totally unaware of the content of the book, and actually saw it on the news that night
that it had come out, and my first concern was to the children, because they were able to understand
what was coming out, and I wanted to protect them.
But I was pretty devastated myself. But then I admired the honesty, because it takes a lot to do that.
BASHIR: In what sense?
DIANA: Well, to be honest about a relationship with someone else, in his position - that's quite
BASHIR: How did you handle this with the children?
DIANA: I went to the school and put it to William, particularly, that if you find someone you love in life you
must hang on to it and look after it, and if you were lucky enough to find someone who loved you then
one must protect it.
William asked me what had been going on, and could I answer his questions, which I did.
He said, was that the reason why our marriage had broken up?
And I said, well, there were three of us in this marriage, and the pressure of the media was another
factor, so the two together were very difficult.
But although I still loved Papa I couldn't live under the same roof as him, and likewise with him.
BASHIR: What effect do you think it had on Prince William?
DIANA: Well, he's a child that's a deep thinker, and we don't know for a few years how it's gone in. But I
put it in gently, without resentment or any anger.
BASHIR: Looking back now, do you feel at all responsible for the difficulties in your marriage?
DIANA: Mmm. I take full responsibility, I take some responsibility that our marriage went the way it did.
I'll take half of it, but I won't take any more than that, because it takes two to get in this situation.
BASHIR: But you do bear some of the responsibility?
DIANA: Absolutely, we both made mistakes.
BASHIR: Another book that was published recently concerned a Mr James Hewitt, in which he
claimed to have had a very close relationship with you, from about 1989 I think. What was the nature of
DIANA: He was a great friend of mine at a very difficult, yet another difficult time, and he was always
there to support me, and I was absolutely devastated when this book appeared, because I trusted him,
and because, again, I worried about the reaction on my children.
And, yes, there was factual evidence in the book, but a lot of it was, comes from another world, didn't
equate to what happened.
BASHIR: What do you mean?
DIANA: Well, there was a lot of fantasy in that book, and it was very distressing for me that a friend of
mine, who I had trusted, made money out of me. I really minded about that.
And he'd rung me up 10 days before it arrived in the bookshops to tell me that there was nothing to
worry about, and I believed him, stupidly.
And then when it did arrive the first thing I did was rush down to talk to my children. And William
produced a box of chocolates and said, `Mummy, I think you've been hurt. These are to make you smile
BASHIR: Did your relationship go beyond a close friendship?
DIANA: Yes it did, yes.
BASHIR: Were you unfaithful?
DIANA: Yes, I adored him. Yes, I was in love with him. But I was very let down.
BASHIR: How would you describe your life now? You do live very much on your own, don't you?
DIANA: Yes, I don't mind that actually. You know, people think that at the end of the day a man is the
only answer. Actually, a fulfilling job is better for me. (LAUGHTER)
BASHIR: What do you mean by that?
DIANA: Well, I mean any gentleman that's been past my door, we've instantly been put together in the
media and all hell's broken loose, so that's been very tough on the male friends I've had, and obviously
from my point of view.
BASHIR: Does that mean that you feel that for the rest of your life you'll have to be on your own?
DIANA: No, I'm not really on my own. I've got wonderful friends, I've got my boys, I've got my work.
It's just by living at Kensington Palace obviously it is a little bit isolating, but, you know, maybe we all
feel like that.
BASHIR: How do you feel about the way the press behaves towards you now?
DIANA: I still to this day find the interest daunting and phenomenal, because I actually don't like being
the centre of attention.
When I have my public duties, I understand that when I get out the car I'm being photographed, but
actually it's now when I go out of my door, my front door, I'm being photographed.
I never know where a lens is going to be.
A normal day would be followed by four cars; a normal day would come back to my car and find six
freelance photographers jumping around me.
Some people would say, Well, if you had a policeman it would make it easier. It doesn't at all.
They've decided that I'm still a product, after 15, 16 years, that sells well, and they all shout at me,
telling me that: `Oh, come on, Di, look up. If you give us a picture I can get my children to a better
And, you know, you can laugh it off. But you get that the whole time. It's quite difficult.
BASHIR: Some people would say that in the early years of your marriage you were partly
responsible for encouraging the press interest - you danced with people like Wayne Sleep, you
seemed to enjoy it, you had a very good and warm relationship.
Do you feel any responsibility for the way the press have behaved towards you?
DIANA: I've never encouraged the media. There was a relationship which worked before, but now I
can't tolerate it because it's become abusive and it's harassment.
But I don't want to be seen to be indulging in self-pity. I'm not.
I understand they have a job to do. You could equate it to a soap opera really. It goes on and on and
on, and the story never changes.
And each time one enjoys oneself - albeit it's in a different situation - you have to pay for it, because
people criticise, which comes with the patch, as I said previously.
But I am a free spirit - unfortunately for some.
BASHIR: But here at Kensington Palace, are you isolated?
DIANA: Well I am by the nature of my situation, yes, but I don't feel sorry for myself in any way.
I've got my work that I choose to do, and I've got my boys, and I've got lots of opportunities coming up in
the next year - visits abroad: I'm about to go to Argentina, which I'm very happy with, and hope very
much to continue the good relationship that's now been adopted between the two countries. I hope I
can be of help there.
BASHIR: What role do you see for yourself in the future?
DIANA: I'd like to be an ambassador for this country. I'd like to represent this country abroad.
As I have all this media interest, let's not just sit in this country and be battered by it. Let's take them,
these people, out to represent this country and the good qualities of it abroad.
When I go abroad we've got 60 to 90 photographers, just from this country, coming with me, so let's
use it in a productive way, to help this country.
BASHIR: You say you feel that your future is as some form of ambassador. At whose behest is that?
On what grounds do you feel that you have the right to think of yourself as an ambassador.
DIANA: I've been in a privileged position for 15 years. I've got tremendous knowledge about people and
how to communicate. I've learnt that, I've got it, and I want to use it.
And when I look at people in public life, I'm not a political animal but I think the biggest disease this
world suffers from in this day and age is the disease of people feeling unloved, and I know that I can
give love for a minute, for half an hour, for a day, for a month, but I can give - I'm very happy to do that
and I want to do that.
BASHIR: Do you think that the British people are happy with you in your role?
DIANA: I think the British people need someone in public life to give affection, to make them feel
important, to support them, to give them light in their dark tunnels.
I see it as a possibly unique role, and yes, I've had difficulties, as everybody has witnessed over the
years, but let's now use the knowledge I've gathered to help other people in distress.
BASHIR: Do you think you can?
DIANA: I know I can, I know I can, yes.
BASHIR: Up until you came into this family, the monarchy seemed to enjoy an unquestioned
position at the heart of British life. Do you feel that you're at all to blame for the fact that survival of the
monarchy is now a question that people are asking?
DIANA: No, I don't feel blame. I mean, once or twice I've heard people say to me that, you know,
`Diana's out to destroy the monarchy', which has bewildered me, because why would I want to destroy
something that is my children's future.
I will fight for my children on any level in order for them to be happy and have peace of mind and carry
out their duties.
But I think what concerns me most of all about how people discuss the monarchy is they become
indifferent, and I think that is a problem, and I think that should be sorted out, yes.
BASHIR: When you say indifferent, what do you mean?
DIANA: They don't care. People don't care any more. They've been so force-fed with marital problems,
whatever, whatever, whatever, that they're fed up.
I'm fed up of reading about it. I'm in it, so God knows what people out there must think.
BASHIR: Do you think the monarchy needs to adapt and to change in order to survive?
DIANA: I understand that change is frightening for people, especially if there's nothing to go to. It's best
to stay where you are. I understand that.
But I do think that there are a few things that could change, that would alleviate this doubt, and
sometimes complicated relationship between monarchy and public. I think they could walk hand in
hand, as opposed to be so distant.
BASHIR: What are you doing to try and effect some kind of change?
DIANA: Well, with William and Harry, for instance, I take them round homelessness projects, I ve taken
William and Harry to people dying of Aids - albeit I told them it was cancer - I ve taken the children to all
sorts of areas where I'm not sure anyone of that age in this family has been before.
And they have a knowledge - they may never use it, but the seed is there, and I hope it will grow
because knowledge is power.
BASHIR: What are you hoping that that experience for your children - what impact that experience
will have on your children?
DIANA: I want them to have an understanding of people's emotions, people's insecurities, people's
distress, and people's hopes and dreams.
BASHIR: What kind of monarchy do you anticipate?
DIANA: I would like a monarchy that has more contact with its people - and I don't mean by riding round
bicycles and things like that, but just having a more in-depth understanding.
And I don't say that as a criticism to the present monarchy: I just say that as what I see and hear and
feel on a daily basis in the role I have chosen for myself.
BASHIR: There's a lot of discussion at the moment about how matters between yourself and the
Prince of Wales will be resolved. There's even the suggestion of a divorce between you. What are your
thoughts about that?
DIANA: I don't want a divorce, but obviously we need clarity on a situation that has been of enormous
discussion over the last three years in particular.
So all I say to that is that I await my husband's decision of which way we are all going to go.
BASHIR: If he wished a divorce to go through, would you accept that?
DIANA: I would obviously discuss it with him, but up to date neither of us has discussed this subject,
though the rest of the world seems to have.
BASHIR: Would it be your wish to divorce?
DIANA: No, it's not my wish.
BASHIR: Why? Wouldn't that resolve matters?
DIANA: Why would it resolve matters?
BASHIR: It would provide the clarity that you talk about, it would resolve matters as far as the public
are concerned perhaps.
DIANA: Yes, but what about the children? Our boys - that's what matters, isn't it?
BASHIR: Do you think you will ever be Queen?
DIANA: No, I don't, no.
BASHIR: Why do you think that?
DIANA: I'd like to be a queen of people's hearts, in people's hearts, but I don't see myself being Queen
of this country. I don't think many people will want me to be Queen.
Actually, when I say many people I mean the establishment that I married into, because they have
decided that I'm a non-starter.
BASHIR: Why do you think they've decided that?
DIANA: Because I do things differently, because I don't go by a rule book, because I lead from the
heart, not the head, and albeit that's got me into trouble in my work, I understand that. But someone's
got to go out there and love people and show it.
BASHIR: Do you think that because of the way you behave that's precluded you effectively from
DIANA: Yes, well not precluded me. I wouldn't say that. I just don't think I have as many supporters in
that environment as I did.
BASHIR: You mean within the Royal Household?
DIANA: Uh,uh. They see me as a threat of some kind, and I'm here to do good: I'm not a destructive
BASHIR: Why do they see you as a threat?
DIANA: I think every strong woman in history has had to walk down a similar path, and I think it's the
strength that causes the confusion and the fear.
Why is she strong? Where does she get it from? Where is she taking it?
Where is she going to use it? Why do the public still support her? When I say public, you go and do an
engagement and there's a great many people there.
BASHIR: Do you think the Prince of Wales will ever be King?
DIANA: I don't think any of us know the answer to that. And obviously it's a question that's in everybody's
head. But who knows, who knows what fate will produce, who knows what circumstances will
BASHIR: But you would know him better than most people. Do you think he would wish to be King?
DIANA: There was always conflict on that subject with him when we discussed it, and I understood that
conflict, because it's a very demanding role, being Prince of Wales, but it's an equally more demanding
role being King.
And being Prince of Wales produces more freedom now, and being King would be a little bit more
suffocating. And because I know the character I would think that the top job, as I call it, would bring
enormous limitations to him, and I don't know whether he could adapt to that.
BASHIR: Do you think it would make more sense in the light of the marital difficulties that you and
the Prince of Wales have had if the position of monarch passed directly to your son Prince William?
DIANA: Well, then you have to see that William's very young at the moment, so do you want a burden
like that to be put on his shoulders at such an age? So I can't answer that question.
BASHIR: Would it be your wish that when Prince William comes of age that he were to succeed the
Queen rather than the current Prince of Wales?
DIANA: My wish is that my husband finds peace of mind, and from that follows others things, yes.
BASHIR: Why have you decided to give this interview now? Why have you decided to speak at this
DIANA: Because we will have been separated three years this December, and the perception that has
been given of me for the last three years has been very confusing, turbulent, and in some areas I'm
sure many, many people doubt me.
And I want to reassure all those people who have loved me and supported me throughout the last 15
years that I'd never let them down. That is a priority to me, along with my children.
BASHIR: And so you feel that by speaking out in this way you'll be able to reassure the people?
DIANA: Uh,uh. The people that matter to me - the man on the street, yup, because that's what matters
more than anything else.
BASHIR: Some people might think - some people might interpret this as you simply taking the
opportunity to get your own back on your husband.
DIANA: I don't sit here with resentment: I sit here with sadness because a marriage hasn't worked.
I sit here with hope because there's a future ahead, a future for my husband, a future for myself and a
future for the monarchy.
BASHIR: Your Royal Highness, thank you.