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Just
a bit of fun
At
the start it seemed like a little bit of harmless fun. I mean I
thought everyone was doing it. A fiver that's it just top get red,
that was my dinner money from school. I started knocking off school
when I was 13. I went to my mate's house from then and never went
back. Instead we went to the dealers got our weed and then back
to his house to smoke it. We even bought a bong, we didn't smoke
spliffs anymore. The bongs got me even redder, until one day I realised
that nothing was happening to me anymore. My friend and I felt that
we were that used to weed we needed something else.
It
made me feel good
A fiver
for 2. That's all it was, five pound for 2 ecstasy pills. I must
admit I knew these things were bad but it was just a trip at the
end of it. After I took them it took about 20 minutes for them to
work. My heart started racing and I felt like I had endless energy.
After that I bought them everyday.
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nearly took my own life and ruined others."
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Just
before Christmas I was on about 6 a day. I'd go home and smash my
mum's house up, hit my dad and I even stole from them just to get
the pills.
Then
one night they wouldn't let me in. I smashed a window to get in,
but my mum had already phoned the police. I got arrested but my
mum bailed me out.
Going
cold turkey
I went
straight to bed when I got home but I couldn't sleep, I could hardly
see. I kept blacking out, then as I lay back down there was a shadow
on the wall. It was coming at me and whoever it was had a knife.
I hid under the duvet to stop it from getting me. I felt really
sick and I was so paranoid that I was going to die.
I stayed
in that bedroom then for over a week.
I
nearly took my own life
No
more pills I told myself well after 6 months and taking between
5-10 pills a day. I knew I was ruining my life. I got cold turkey,
smashed the house up.
I realised
that I brought the problem on myself so I had to overcome it myself.
That
was 9 months ago and I'm proud to say that I'm clean of any drug.
I've had my experience with drugs and I feel so dumb for having
it.
I nearly
took my own life and ruined others.
(as
told to Michelle Feather in Sam's own words)
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