finally I'm back
Feb 22, 2003
First time I've been shouted at to write something. Okay, here's an update:
I'm now doing a single-module of a Science and Science Fiction degree and Glamorgan Uni in Wales. This is what I can afford to do with the sad salary I get for being a serf in a local factory.
I wasted a lot of time by attempting a massive web-project that would take far more money, time and energy than I've got to give it, while at the same time struggling to write something that's meaningful to me and which someone else might want to buy.
Having dispensed with the web-project (temporarily) because I can't afford it (and IT's in the bin generally), I'm now focussing myself on writing and making it pay.
I've a book skeleton that I need to add some flesh to, a short script for television that needs attention and a number of feature scripts that I want to start.....and a video-game idea....and some tv material that needs time and money.
I really want a small group to write with; I've found that I can get so far on my own, but the energy/inertia of a group makes a tremendous difference. (I'm too used to that whooshing-sound as deadlines pass.)
I'd be quite happy to leave Uni if I could find a job somewhere that pays a reasonable wage and which my talents are suited to. I love playing on Mac computers, dreaming mad visions that others must make real, promoting recycling, reading and writing. I'm also looking for a wife....okay, a date would be a good start, but want something deeper.
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What's next
Apr 2, 2001
I'm planning on feeding several birds with one seed this year: a return to the 'motherland', a higher-education, an interesting holiday....and possibly a new 'life'. I'm waiting for the confirmation of acceptance by Glamorgan U. in Wales for my position in the Science and Science Fiction degree.
Now I'm having trouble sleeping because my energy levels are peaking.....and my mind's racing ahead to all sorts of possibilities.
I've now got five months to fill.....find work, get my personal project underway, accumulate some new experiences, burn off some of this energy that's still seeking an outlet....stay in the moment.....I'm rambling; I'm excited.
I may even finally get to visit the new H2G2 offices and meet some of the people I've been reading about for so long.
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Making good on self in a world that wants committments from everyone for everything; where did the time go?
Dec 7, 2000
Following in parental footsteps, I've been very good at putting my own projects on hold in favour of those of others. Now I'm changing that, having caught myself over-committing to activities (all of which were worthy) which still took me away from that which I most want to do (and which I feel most intimidated about doing): living up to my potential.
I have three screenplays in my head which need the expression of print, or at least computer-software attention.
My stay-quiet-and-introverted nature is now being re-written because I'm desperate for people-contact and want to make a difference in the world. To that end, I'm assisting with the re-building of the Sustainability conference due to come to Vancouver next year (I missed out on all of the great movements of the 60s, so this is my first go at one).
I'm also catching up on the wave of streaming-media (which I didn't have a use for before now).
Sometimes I feel that there's too much going on that's of interest or of use for anyone one person to keep up with; I've always been an information sponge, able to direct the appropriate content toward the needy individual fairly quickly. Now, I'm not so sure that's possible any longer, or I must be more selective about what I keep up with....and I must now learn OS X....and hunt for my life-partner/wife (whatever the appropriate term is now).
Being web-connected makes the world feel a great deal smaller than it really is; talking to masses of people from different places means keeping up with some of them because now the personal-touch has become highly-visibly important (it always was, but even the dullest minds are noticing this now).
I don't know where I'm going with this so I'll stop now.
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Personal Evolution
Sep 21, 2000
Going through an interesting learning curve: how to stay present in each moment (instead of wandering off into a dream); learning how to admit that I like myself and use that as a motivation to action; learning how be more vulnerable with others and allow them to support me in getting what I want; how to be more sociable and recognise that I'm wanted; putting myself back on course with the completion of my dream: the creation of my interactive documentary/encyclopaedia 'book', which I'd partly given up on because I wasn't getting the reactions I was hoping for.
Most of this is internal work; changing the way I respond to the world provides me with a different reaction from the world. Sometimes this is working and other times I'm left to wonder.
"If you can fill the unforgiving minute with sixty seconds worth of distance run
Then yours is the world and all that's in it"
comes to mind occasionally. That's "If" by Rudyard Kipling, in case you don't recognise it. I'm learning about the nature of that sixty-seconds worth of distance run; taking emotional risks and stumbling is okay when I allow myself to be a beginner at everything and have the patience to learn without beating myself up for the time I take to learn something.
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By Request
Oct 4, 1999
I'll write something when I have something that's suitable for public consumption; yes, even my emails are more carefully thought out than many: I value clarity of thought and word, especially in writing.
If anyone's keen on more words, please light a fire under the editors: they've got a string of columns of mine that haven't been approved yet, and many months have elapased (yes, I know the whole world's contributing and that's part of the problem....).
Is the idea of dysfunctional families healing themselves passe (sorry, I don't know how to put the accent-mark over the e yet) now? I've got the time to write the telly-serial only I'm not sure the idea's topical enough any more.
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