Anxiety attack
Mar 31, 2004
Dear me I'm having one of my anxiety attacks. I think I'll pop a little Valium and go to bed a bit earlier today. Stomach clenched and increased heart rate, it's not right.
Too much to do, too little time, and the deadline on that short story is drawing closer...
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In the mail
Mar 30, 2004
The draft of the publishing deal arrived in my inbox today. Yowsa!
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Back again
Mar 5, 2004
I wonder if anyone will remember me. Things change so fast on the Internet.
I have been AWOL for a while. Some personal issues had to be resolved and I had to concentrate on stuff. So now here I am. I wonder how many of my old buddies are still hooting. I wonder if I'm still welcome. But I'll try anyway.
Since we last talked, I have become quite popular among Italian bloggers, have made a lot of new friends, rekindled a friendship that I thought was lost, had a few lovers and now trying - wonder of wonders - to get a relationship going.
It's a bit strange, I had been single for a while and I just don't know exactly how it's done, how far I can go at this rather tentative stage, and how I will handle it if things fall apart.
What matters is that I made it out of 2003 alive.
No mean feat.
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This is for Kaz
Sep 1, 2003
People will always try to bring you down to size. My weblog is doing quite well, so certain people are taking it upon themselves to insult me. The girlfriend of a guy I've had a bad argument with has just posted something on my blog, basically making fun of me, but without the guts to name names.
A friend of mine, a guy she used to be after but who now hates her, has just commented on her post saying it's totally stupid and ridiculous. She says she hasn't a clue what he's on about.
You see, of course this is irritating and upsetting, but when I look at the larger picture, I see a person who has nothing better to do with her weblog than insult me. A very interesting life, surely.
I did not comment.
I will not take her up on it.
It would be stupid.
It would be like saying she matters. And she doesn't, really.
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Head nor tail
Aug 25, 2003
Mr D is back. Six months after we parted ways in the impossibility to stay friends, he got in touch and asked to see me. I accepted and we went out to dinner together.
When I saw him sitting on the bench at the fountain - all seven feet of him - I ran over and jumped in his lap. I was so overjoyed to see him it was all I could do not to tumble over! We talked and talked and talked, and I told him everything, how I was suffering too much to be near him and how I suffered without him and how hard it was to start living again.
We discussed the guy I'm flirting with, and he said something very smart about it, and I just blurted out "How did i do without you for six months?"
"I could say exactly the same" he said.
We missed each other. I wish he loved me the way I love him, but I have long accepted it will never be so.
Speaking of the Other Guy, I've bullied him into admitting he likes me. I never thought I had it in me to be so direct, and I think I was because of what Mr D said, that the guy would be beating about the bush forever unless I confronted him. So I did. And he came out with it.
So we're in this strange place now, where both of us have admitted we like each other, but we're still 300 kms and several snogs from "seeing each other".
Strange.
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