Pretty football is not a priority
You've got to have a big heart to play for Sheffield Wednesday at the moment. We're not where we'd like to be in the Championship but sometimes it is more difficult to play in the team when you're not at the top of the table but fighting for your lives to stay in the division.
You could feel the nerves in the stadium on Wednesday night. It was a massive game against Watford and thankfully we came out on top so everyone associated with Sheffield Wednesday went home with a bit of relief and a smile on their face.
Obviously as players we have got it in the back of our minds that you don't want to lose games in the situation we are in so everyone is a little bit tense. Nobody wants to make a slip that could put us under pressure and which means producing pretty football is not a priority at the moment. It's all about getting results.
We've had back-to-back home games and went into the first one against Derby with the confidence that we could get a win. Obviously that game ended up being a 0-0 draw so it made the Watford game even more crucial.
We went ahead early in the second half and when Watford scored an equaliser from a very good free-kick you could see in their faces that they would have been happy with a draw. But Luke Varney scored a winner for us in the last five minutes and I have to give our lads credit because it was a great result.
You could see the joy in the faces of everyone on the bench, there was joy in the faces of our players on the pitch and the fans were all delighted. It was great and we were all jumping through hoops when we left the stadium.
Both teams were very tentative in the first half and it was not a great spectacle by any means. It just showed how much tension there was. We were much brighter in the second half and started to create chances, we got at Watford a little bit more and that sparked the crowd into action.
That really spurred us on and even though Watford equalised I was really pleased for Eddie Nolan. It was his first goal in league football so it was a nice thing for him to start his scoring tally. He has been playing here on loan from Preston and has done very well.
I knew him from my Blackburn days when he was a young lad and I knew he had a really good chance to make it as a footballer so it has been good to see how he has been performing at the minute. He's a nice kid and a good addition to our squad.
When we conceded the equaliser I probably thought in the back of my mind that we weren't making things easy for ourselves which has often been the case over recent years at this club. But it was nice to turn things around as most people were thinking we would have to settle for a solitary point again.
Scoring late winners doesn't seem to happen very often at Sheffield Wednesday so you can imagine the emotions in the dressing room afterwards; it was big smiles and a fair bit of relief.
Luke Varney's late winner was a reward for his unbelievable energy. He never stops and he'd chase an empty crisp packet around the stadium if that's what he was asked to do.
It was a great run from him, a great ball in and a great finish so it was good to see both of our loanees get on the scoresheet.
For Watford, Tuesday night would have been gut wrenching.
They're not in great form themselves and are getting dragged into the dogfight. But they have to get over it soon because there will be another game at the weekend.
That's for other people to worry about though because there is little room for sentiment in this business I'm afraid.
Our recent results have shown the character coming through in our squad. Coming back from 2-0 down to get a draw against Preston and scoring a late winner against Watford could be remembered as key moments in our season.
Our first-half performances against Preston and Watford could have been better but in general we have been performing much better recently.
While we are focused on our own jobs it's impossible not to take note of the results around us. With 15 or 16 games to go we started looking at other teams' results.
Manager Alan Irvine has been a breath of fresh air at Sheffield Wednesday
If we'd got a good result ourselves we'd look for the results of the other team around us hoping they'd lost. Going into the Watford game, Scunthorpe had won to move further above us and that made our match even more vital.
Football is on TV 24-7 now, it's in newspapers and it's online. Your friends speak about it and sometimes there is no getting away from it even if you do try to block it all out. Of course we heard about the results in the Tuesday night games.
It's there in the back of your mind but you don't want to talk about it. You push it to the back of your mind when you get to the stadium so you can get on with the job in hand.
It's all about what we do on a matchday in that respect because we can't worry about whether other teams are slipping up or winning games.
We have to get a certain amount of points and until we get those points on the board it doesn't really matter what other teams are doing. We now have seven huge games to go and the sooner we get the points on the board the better.
When you go out on to the pitch you have to block everything else out of your mind and concentrate on the match. But we know everybody is the same, we all go through the same emotions.
It can be a test of patience for us and for the supporters. They just want to see us do well but I'd never criticise anyone for what they say at football matches.
Fans pay a lot of money to attend games throughout the season and they can say what they want. They obviously come to cheer the team along but if things aren't going well they have the right to air their views.
Our gaffer is a passionate man. Alan Irvine has been a breath of fresh air here, as I've said before and as far as I'm concerned he deserves to be coaching in the Championship.
He obviously wants us to get the results we need as quickly as possible so that we can be sure that we will be in the Championship next season. You could see the emotions running through the gaffer on the touchline on Wednesday.
He's usually a man who can just stand on the touchline and watch the players perform for 90 minutes but you can see he is getting dragged into the atmosphere of the game and that just shows the passion he has for being a successful manager.