Back to square one after Reading hammering?
Last Saturday was one of those horrible days at the office where you wonder if the whole world is closing in on you. There was nothing nice about our 5-0 defeat at Reading at all and Alan Irvine certainly let us know we had let everyone down.
It was well below the level of performance he has come to expect from us. As individuals and as a team, we let him down. He has been a breath of fresh air at Sheffield Wednesday since he walked through the door, so he certainly didn't deserve that.
It was 0-0 after 40 minutes, so for us to concede five goals between the 41st and 71st minutes was just unacceptable. Reading had other chances to score, too, while we had a couple of opportunities ourselves, but the bottom line was our performance was poor.
I came off at half-time. We were 2-0 down at that stage, so the manager needed to change things around to try to get us back in the game. He could probably have taken anyone off the pitch at that time. He could have pulled the names out of a hat.
Now we just want to put the loss behind us as quickly as possible. You don't want to have to reflect on games like that. It's not nice for the players, it's not nice for the management and it's certainly not nice for the supporters who travelled all the way down to Reading.
It's one thing having a bad day at the office - after all, you don't make mistakes on purpose - but it's a crime if players aren't seen to be running around the pitch. We can't ever let that happen again because we let a lot of people down.
What was said after the game by the manager and the players will remain private. What is said in the dressing room stays there. That's the case not only at Sheffield Wednesday but at every football club. And rightly so.
If Saturday was bad, Sunday was not an enjoyable day either. I was just sitting around at home waiting to go into training on Monday and watch the video of the match. It was a bad weekend all round.
After a great run when the new manager came in, it feels like we are back to square one. Now we have to find the winning formula again very quickly. We all need to show that we are strong characters now. We need to have big hearts and we need courage. All those things have to come to the fore because we will have another big crowd at the weekend and it's important show character at Hillsborough.
Former Preston boss Alan Irvine was appointed in January after the departure of Brian Laws. Photograph: PA
The Sheffield Wednesday fans are very demanding - and rightly so. If we are performing on the pitch then there is no better place to be playing, but if the performances are below what the fans expect then they are going to let you know about it. That's totally right because they pay their money to come through those turnstiles, to see their team perform, and we have to step over that white line and produce for them.
Leicester are our opponents on Saturday and they will be tough opposition. But it doesn't matter who we are playing, we just have to make sure our performances give us every chance of a win. At this point in the season, we have to keep thinking in a really positive way, by everyone rallying around and by showing passion for the blue and white stripes of Sheffield Wednesday.